Oh how I hate clothes shopping!! If I have said it once, I've said it a million times -- I HATE CLOTHES SHOPPING!! UGH! I drove to my parents' house this weekend so I could go shopping with my sister to buy clothes for NYC. It's been a good stay with them and that's been great.
I love shopping with my sister. Usually when we go in a store, I head straight to the dressing room and she starts bringing me stacks of clothes. Some clothes I would have picked out for myself, but most of the time there are things that I never would have pulled off of the rack. We laugh and have a good time. The good thing is that I don't get overwhelmed by racks and racks of clothes -- she takes care of that for me. I don't get overwhelmed trying to put an outfit together -- she does that for me.
So, I got up this morning excited about shopping with Sally. We headed to Amarillo. . . first stop -- the mall. OK, somehow we ended up in Baby Gap first. Yes, I know nothing in there was going to fit me, but I needed an outfit for Jaxon for pictures next week. BINGO!! Found one. . . and a few others, but I only bought the one. We're off to a good start!!!
JCPenneys, Bealls, Dillards (for 2 hours). . . I walked out with some shirts for Evan. At this point, we aren't doing very well. The weird thing is that Sally isn't doing very good either!! We aren't finding anything for us!! New York & Company -- 1 pair of jeans for $6!! We decide to ditch the mall.
OK it's 3 pm and we haven't eaten lunch so we head to Sharky's. . best thing of the day!!
We then went to Kohl's. . . one shirt for $7. Old Navy. . nothing. Avenue . . . nothing. By this time, I have given up on clothes shopping. I'm just thinking that nothing is going to fit unless I have some liposuction and a tummy tuck, so there's no point in shopping anymore. I'm so done!! Lane Bryant . . one shirt for $10. Kirklands. . . World Market. . . shhhh! But the fact is that I didn't buy anything in Kirkland's or World Market either!!
So, I had this revelation in New York and Company today. My sister and I were sharing a dressing room -- bad idea, by the way. Sure didn't help me with my body image!! She put on this sweater that looked great on her, but she was picking it apart. It made her hips look to wide and the sleeves weren't long enough and it made her look flat and the pants she was trying on made her butt look huge.
Now, if you've seen my sister, you would know that she is as skinny as they come. I was standing there thinking, "I would love to look like her!" I thought that if I looked like her, I would wear whatever I wanted and be able to fit into whatever I pulled off the rack! So, I told her that I didn't want to hear about how wide her hips were or how big her butt was because I would love to look like her. She said, "Oh no you wouldn't. It's not as easy as you think."
From that point on, God started talking to me about being content. I've been very discontent lately in several areas. Today it was in my size. I've bought 3 pairs of jeans in the last few weeks and they are the biggest size I've ever had to buy. I tried on shirts and they fit except around my stomach. Now, I know you're saying, "Rachel, you just had a baby." To that I say that it doesn't matter to me. I still had to buy those jeans in that size. I still had a hard time finding a shirt to fit. I still got disappointed at how many items of clothing I tried on today to walk away with 3 things!
Then, there are working moms. . . oh how I THINK I want to be one. I look at Trish who gets to do what she loves every day. I'm having to find a babysitter so I can go to meetings and maybe one day I'll get my new office pulled together and actually get to use it. Please don't hear me say that my kids are a nuisance to me. Not what I'm saying at all. I love them to pieces and I honestly wouldn't trade staying home with them. That's why I said I THINK I want to be one. . . God just revealed to me an area where I've been discontent. Then, Trish is looking back at me and wishing she could be home with her kids. (Trish, I'm just using you as an example).
GOSH! Why is being content sometimes so hard? Is it the "striving" that is so ingrained in us -- be more, do more, have more? Is it the perfection (or the imperfection)? Is there always someone who looks better? Will I ever be good enough for myself?
As I'm typing this, I keep hearing, "Be still and know that I am God. The joy of the Lord is my strength." As I go to bed tonight after a long day, I go to bed with a smile on my face and determined to be content in every area . . . even while wearing those size ______ jeans.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Thursday, February 14, 2008
My Bedroom Makeover
So, some have asked to see pictures of my bedroom makeover and I finally got the final curtain rod hung up last night. So, here are the before:
Here's the AFTER:
It's a little cluttered still, but you get the idea. I need to find to side tables for the room. I want to use African drums or something like that. I also want to find some artwork for the walls. I've thought about putting pictures of the boys in there but I'm not sure yet.
Here's the AFTER:
It's a little cluttered still, but you get the idea. I need to find to side tables for the room. I want to use African drums or something like that. I also want to find some artwork for the walls. I've thought about putting pictures of the boys in there but I'm not sure yet.
Thursday, February 07, 2008
Spring Break 2008
Wanna know where Aaron is taking me? Here's a hint:
The hotel:
Just one block from this:
Just down the "street":
With dinner here (bad picture):
Yes, you read that right!! I'm packing my bags because I'm heading to NYC!!! OK, so maybe I'm not packing my bags just yet, but that's where I'm headed!!
We fly out on March 16th and come back on March 20th. We're staying at the 3-star Hotel 373 Fifth Avenue which is just one block from the Empire State Building. We're having dinner at Tavern on the Green on Monday night. One day will be shopping at Woodbury Premium Outlets. We also have a 2 day New York Pass where we can get into all the "touristy" things like the Statue of Liberty, etc.
I am so excited!! I almost want to jump up and down like a little girl!! We got an amazing deal on this trip!! I'm telling you that this is a reward for submitting to my husband back in September. Now just pray we don't get stuck in any traffic so Aaron enjoys himself (wink, wink)!!
The hotel:
Just one block from this:
Just down the "street":
With dinner here (bad picture):
Yes, you read that right!! I'm packing my bags because I'm heading to NYC!!! OK, so maybe I'm not packing my bags just yet, but that's where I'm headed!!
We fly out on March 16th and come back on March 20th. We're staying at the 3-star Hotel 373 Fifth Avenue which is just one block from the Empire State Building. We're having dinner at Tavern on the Green on Monday night. One day will be shopping at Woodbury Premium Outlets. We also have a 2 day New York Pass where we can get into all the "touristy" things like the Statue of Liberty, etc.I am so excited!! I almost want to jump up and down like a little girl!! We got an amazing deal on this trip!! I'm telling you that this is a reward for submitting to my husband back in September. Now just pray we don't get stuck in any traffic so Aaron enjoys himself (wink, wink)!!
Here you go, Trish!!
These results didn't surprise me much! ;)
Here's what ISTJ is:
Here's what ISTJ is:
About the ISTJ | Expert Quotes & Links |
| "ISTJs are often called inspectors. They have a keen sense of right and wrong, especially in their area of interest and/or responsibility. They are noted for devotion to duty. Punctuality is a watchword of the ISTJ. The secretary, clerk, or business(wo)man by whom others set their clocks is likely to be an ISTJ." - ISTJ Profile (TypeLogic) "ISTJs are very loyal, faithful, and dependable. They place great importance on honesty and integrity. They are "good citizens" who can be depended on to do the right thing for their families and communities. While they generally take things very seriously, they also usually have an offbeat sense of humor and can be a lot of fun - especially at family or work-related gatherings." - Portrait of an ISTJ (The Personality Page) "...characterized by decisiveness in practical affairs, are the guardians of institutions, and if only one adjective could be selected, "super dependable" would best describe them." - The Portrait of the Inspector Guardian (Keirsey) |  | "...private, does not appreciate strangeness, not adventurous, not spontaneous, follows the rules..." - Jung Type Descriptions (ISTJ) (similarminds.com) "At work, ISTJs get things done on a timely basis. They honor deadlines, and they believe in thoroughness. A half-finished joy is not a job well done. They established procedures and schedules, and are uncomfortable with those who do not do the same. ISTJs put duty before pleasure. As long as they can fulfil their responsibilities, they feel useful and thereby satisfied. Their work does not have to be fun, but it has to count toward something productive. ISTJs believe that vacations are something that one takes only when work has been accomplished; thus, at times they do not take vacations even when they could and should." - ISTJ - The Reliant (Lifexplore) |
Thursday, January 31, 2008
My Week In Review
I've been at home all week and I've taken a few pictures, so I thought I would review my week with those in Blogville.
I figured out that he doesn't scream through them if I put him in his swing so he can look at the mobile that is on it:
Here's my bedroom before:
My baby turns 2 months old!! His shirt says, "Kiss me I'm charming!"
So there you have it. Yes, I've been stuck in the house all day every day this week, but it's been good!!
My baby is doing breathing treatments:
I figured out that he doesn't scream through them if I put him in his swing so he can look at the mobile that is on it:
My boys seem to be getting bigger and bigger
Here's my bedroom before:
You'll have to wait for the AFTER pics, but here's a hint of what happened
(yes, Evan painted that):
Evan had a picnic in the living room with 5 granola bars. Each one has a bite taken out of it.
(yes, Evan painted that):
Evan had a picnic in the living room with 5 granola bars. Each one has a bite taken out of it.
My baby turns 2 months old!! His shirt says, "Kiss me I'm charming!"
So there you have it. Yes, I've been stuck in the house all day every day this week, but it's been good!!
Saturday, January 26, 2008
God is GOOD!!
It's 12:33 am and I'm still awake and about to give a breathing treatment. Yes, you read that right. Jaxon has RSV. I am believing that God is going to heal him in a speedy way, but this post isn't to focus on how the enemy is trying to bring sickness on my boys this week, but to praise God for how GOOD He is!!
I've been debating all week on whether to take Jaxon to the doctor. His coughing sounded terrible, but I couldn't tell if the junk was in his throat or his chest. Thursday night, he had 2 scary episodes (well, scary for me) in the middle of the night. One time, he started coughing and he couldn't catch his breath. There wasn't anything I could do to help him, which made it even more frustrating. The second time, he had the longest, most painful, rolling burp/choking. . . that doesn't even explain it good, but it scared me because I have never heard or felt anything like that.
He got up on Friday morning, took a bottle and went right back to sleep. I went ahead and called the doctor to make an appointment. Be there at 2:30 pm. Jaxon woke up took another bottle and started smiling, etc. We headed to town, but Jaxon was acting FINE! I almost called to cancel the appointment, but decided to go ahead with it since it was Friday.
Here's where God gets good!! We sign in at the desk at 2:35 pm and we were in a room waiting on the doctor at 2:45 pm!! That in itself is a miracle! Usually during this time of year, you can wait HOURS to get back there!
Dr. S came in to look at him. (Jaxon now weighs 14 lbs. 15 oz. by the way!) I told him I just wanted to make sure the junk wasn't in his chest. He took one look at him and said, "Well, it is." He talked to me about RSV and what it meant. I remembered all of it from Evan. Dr. S said if I had let it go over the weekend, it could have gotten bad enough quick enough to put him in the hospital. Dr. S finished his exam and asked me if I had insurance. I said no. He said, "OH NO!" I said, "Yeah, just what I was thinking." I know this medicine is expensive -- could be around $200 for a box of it!
He told me he had samples of the medicine he would give me. He would give Jaxon a prescription, but it wouldn't be too bad. Then he said something about the machine. I said, "Oh I have one of those." He said, "Oh good!! That's a relief. So, this won't be so bad." He gave me the mask and the tubes for free.
So, all in all, it cost me $60 for the office visit and $4 for the prescription!! $4 for the medicine out of my pocket!! This medicine is really expensive and God GAVE it to me!!
Well, continue to believe for a speedy recovery for Jaxon (and for Miles, by the way). 12:45 am . . time for a breathing treatment!
I've been debating all week on whether to take Jaxon to the doctor. His coughing sounded terrible, but I couldn't tell if the junk was in his throat or his chest. Thursday night, he had 2 scary episodes (well, scary for me) in the middle of the night. One time, he started coughing and he couldn't catch his breath. There wasn't anything I could do to help him, which made it even more frustrating. The second time, he had the longest, most painful, rolling burp/choking. . . that doesn't even explain it good, but it scared me because I have never heard or felt anything like that.
He got up on Friday morning, took a bottle and went right back to sleep. I went ahead and called the doctor to make an appointment. Be there at 2:30 pm. Jaxon woke up took another bottle and started smiling, etc. We headed to town, but Jaxon was acting FINE! I almost called to cancel the appointment, but decided to go ahead with it since it was Friday.
Here's where God gets good!! We sign in at the desk at 2:35 pm and we were in a room waiting on the doctor at 2:45 pm!! That in itself is a miracle! Usually during this time of year, you can wait HOURS to get back there!
Dr. S came in to look at him. (Jaxon now weighs 14 lbs. 15 oz. by the way!) I told him I just wanted to make sure the junk wasn't in his chest. He took one look at him and said, "Well, it is." He talked to me about RSV and what it meant. I remembered all of it from Evan. Dr. S said if I had let it go over the weekend, it could have gotten bad enough quick enough to put him in the hospital. Dr. S finished his exam and asked me if I had insurance. I said no. He said, "OH NO!" I said, "Yeah, just what I was thinking." I know this medicine is expensive -- could be around $200 for a box of it!
He told me he had samples of the medicine he would give me. He would give Jaxon a prescription, but it wouldn't be too bad. Then he said something about the machine. I said, "Oh I have one of those." He said, "Oh good!! That's a relief. So, this won't be so bad." He gave me the mask and the tubes for free.
So, all in all, it cost me $60 for the office visit and $4 for the prescription!! $4 for the medicine out of my pocket!! This medicine is really expensive and God GAVE it to me!!
Well, continue to believe for a speedy recovery for Jaxon (and for Miles, by the way). 12:45 am . . time for a breathing treatment!
Thursday, January 24, 2008
I have to brag. . . for just a minute!
Evan and Jaxon have been under the weather since Tuesday evening. Evan got a fever kind of all of a sudden and started this nasty coughing. Jaxon has a nasty cough, but no fever.
Aaron had an early appointment on Wednesday morning, so I had to take Payton to school. I was a little nervous about how I was going to get all of us dressed, fed, etc. and out the door by 7:30 am. Tuesday night I tucked Payton into bed and told him that the next morning, I needed him to jump out of bed and get dressed because it would be a great help to me. He asked me to heat up pancakes for his breakfast. He was sweet and told me I could heat them up when I got up and then he would just eat them when he was ready - already helping me!!
I was up quite a bit Tuesday night between Jaxon & Evan. At 6 am I decided to just go ahead an get in the shower and get a head start on everything that had to take place before 7:30. I got out, got myself together and it was time to wake the boys up. I went in and told Payton to get up and he did. In about 10 minutes, he came out of his room completely dressed -- even his shoes! One down, 2 to go!
Evan still wasn't feeling good and Payton was taking care of him. Payton kept asking Evan how he was feeling. I was feeding Jaxon and Evan couldn't get his shoes on, so Payton did it for him. Payton offered his breakfast to Evan and said he would eat at school. I told Payton that I could fix them both breakfast if he wanted some. He said yes. (I'm not sure what he was thinking when he said he would eat at school. They don't have breakfast at school.)
I had just planned on getting Jaxon ready at coffee that morning and just taking him in his pajamas. But, I had decided to take the boys to the doctor instead, so while I was getting Jaxon changed and dressed, I guess Evan threw up in the living room floor. I walked by the bathroom door and Evan is over the toilet and Payton is rubbing his back telling him it will be ok and to just make it in the toilet.
I almost wanted to cry because he was being so sweet!! When I asked what happened, Payton told me that Evan took too big of drink of Gatorade and he threw up in the living room. I know Payton could see the frustration (not at Evan, just the situation) on my face when he said, "It's ok, mom. I cleaned it up."
Sure enough. . . Payton had cleaned up the spot almost where I couldn't even tell! I kept telling Payton over and over how much I appreciated him.
We got everyone in the car and Payton helped Evan buckle his seatbelt, which he hates doing. Then, he crawled in the front seat and off we went at 7:40 am. We made it to school on time and as Payton got out of the car to walk in the school, I was the proudest mom on the planet!!
Last night, Aaron said he would stay with the boys and I could go to life group. Payton & I were walking out the door when Evan jumped off the couch with his eyes swollen and red and his cheeks bright red. He said, "Mom! I'm feeling all better!" He wanted to go to life group so bad! I asked him if he would like it if Anna was going to get what he had. He said no. I explained that when we're sick, we stay home so that other people don't get what we have. He climbed back on the couch and Payton said, "It's ok, Evan. We'll be right back."
After life group, we were about to leave when Payton asked if he could get a cookie. I told him he could get one and he said, "But I need 2. I need to get one for Evan." GOSH!! What happened to this kid?!?! I love it!
We walked back in our house and Payton said, "Evan, how are you feeling?" Evan said, "My fever broke, but now it's back again." Payton said, "Well, I got you a cookie. Want to eat it in the kitchen?" Evan jumped off the couch and they enjoyed their cookies together.
Last night as I was going to bed, I was again reminded how fast my kids are growing up. But, I'm glad they're growing up as friends.
Aaron had an early appointment on Wednesday morning, so I had to take Payton to school. I was a little nervous about how I was going to get all of us dressed, fed, etc. and out the door by 7:30 am. Tuesday night I tucked Payton into bed and told him that the next morning, I needed him to jump out of bed and get dressed because it would be a great help to me. He asked me to heat up pancakes for his breakfast. He was sweet and told me I could heat them up when I got up and then he would just eat them when he was ready - already helping me!!
I was up quite a bit Tuesday night between Jaxon & Evan. At 6 am I decided to just go ahead an get in the shower and get a head start on everything that had to take place before 7:30. I got out, got myself together and it was time to wake the boys up. I went in and told Payton to get up and he did. In about 10 minutes, he came out of his room completely dressed -- even his shoes! One down, 2 to go!
Evan still wasn't feeling good and Payton was taking care of him. Payton kept asking Evan how he was feeling. I was feeding Jaxon and Evan couldn't get his shoes on, so Payton did it for him. Payton offered his breakfast to Evan and said he would eat at school. I told Payton that I could fix them both breakfast if he wanted some. He said yes. (I'm not sure what he was thinking when he said he would eat at school. They don't have breakfast at school.)
I had just planned on getting Jaxon ready at coffee that morning and just taking him in his pajamas. But, I had decided to take the boys to the doctor instead, so while I was getting Jaxon changed and dressed, I guess Evan threw up in the living room floor. I walked by the bathroom door and Evan is over the toilet and Payton is rubbing his back telling him it will be ok and to just make it in the toilet.
I almost wanted to cry because he was being so sweet!! When I asked what happened, Payton told me that Evan took too big of drink of Gatorade and he threw up in the living room. I know Payton could see the frustration (not at Evan, just the situation) on my face when he said, "It's ok, mom. I cleaned it up."
Sure enough. . . Payton had cleaned up the spot almost where I couldn't even tell! I kept telling Payton over and over how much I appreciated him.
We got everyone in the car and Payton helped Evan buckle his seatbelt, which he hates doing. Then, he crawled in the front seat and off we went at 7:40 am. We made it to school on time and as Payton got out of the car to walk in the school, I was the proudest mom on the planet!!
Last night, Aaron said he would stay with the boys and I could go to life group. Payton & I were walking out the door when Evan jumped off the couch with his eyes swollen and red and his cheeks bright red. He said, "Mom! I'm feeling all better!" He wanted to go to life group so bad! I asked him if he would like it if Anna was going to get what he had. He said no. I explained that when we're sick, we stay home so that other people don't get what we have. He climbed back on the couch and Payton said, "It's ok, Evan. We'll be right back."
After life group, we were about to leave when Payton asked if he could get a cookie. I told him he could get one and he said, "But I need 2. I need to get one for Evan." GOSH!! What happened to this kid?!?! I love it!
We walked back in our house and Payton said, "Evan, how are you feeling?" Evan said, "My fever broke, but now it's back again." Payton said, "Well, I got you a cookie. Want to eat it in the kitchen?" Evan jumped off the couch and they enjoyed their cookies together.
Last night as I was going to bed, I was again reminded how fast my kids are growing up. But, I'm glad they're growing up as friends.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
It has been FOUND!!
This morning when I got up, I felt like I was supposed to go look in my car for my camera. Let me assure you that I have tore that thing up looking for my camera several times. So, I dismissed the thought and went about my day. But I kept thinking to go look in my car.
So, I bundled up and pulled my car into the garage so I could shut the garage door and be a little warmer. I cleaned out the front of the car and nothing. I got to the backseat and put my hand under the middle seat and viola!! There sat my camera!!
I had to laugh!! All morning I was searching online for a new camera, but I couldn't even get excited about a NEW camera because I wanted my old one back. . . not to mention the money I was going to have to spend, which I have allocated to something else.
Now I realize that if I would have just listened to that voice telling me to look in there this morning, I wouldn't have wasted my whole morning online comparing cameras and I might have gotten all my laundry put away by now!!
Anyway, I'm so excited!! I can finally take pictures of Jaxon's smile!!
So, I bundled up and pulled my car into the garage so I could shut the garage door and be a little warmer. I cleaned out the front of the car and nothing. I got to the backseat and put my hand under the middle seat and viola!! There sat my camera!!
I had to laugh!! All morning I was searching online for a new camera, but I couldn't even get excited about a NEW camera because I wanted my old one back. . . not to mention the money I was going to have to spend, which I have allocated to something else.
Now I realize that if I would have just listened to that voice telling me to look in there this morning, I wouldn't have wasted my whole morning online comparing cameras and I might have gotten all my laundry put away by now!!
Anyway, I'm so excited!! I can finally take pictures of Jaxon's smile!!
Hug Your Kids Today -- BEWARE -- You might cry
The other night, I was sweeping the kitchen floor wondering how many crumbs one child can make from a grilled cheese sandwich. Did he even get any in his mouth? But just as quick as I had that thought, God told me, "You know, those crumbs won't be there forever." I stood corrected. He is right. My kids won't always be little forever. One day I'm going to look up and there won't be crumbs on my floor, but my boys will be bigger. I am really cherishing my middle of the night feedings with Jaxon knowing this very well could be my last baby. Today I'm also very thankful for those bread crumbs on the floor.
Here's the update on my friend, Juilan. Please pray for his mom, Mimi, and his family. I cannot imagine what they are going through.
267 January 19, 2008 at 06:55 PM CST
Time of Death ,11:22am ... Never thought I would ever hear these words about my 4 1/2 year old son. But this morning , those words got engraved in my mind and my heart forever.
Julian fought until the last painful breath. Again NOTHING peaceful about this process until , until he stopped gasping for air.
Julian looked like a fish out of the water, trying so hard to fill those lungs ,but nothing. You could see the normal breathing motions his body made, but nothing got past his throat.Finally he stopped fighting.
When he started having a hard time breathing I went to get Ken . He stood on one side of the bed and i was on there with Julian . We talked him thru his transition . We told him it would be ok . We told him we were proud of him . I told him to say Hi to Jesus for me. I told him that Cody and Jacob were waiting for him . I told him that we would be ok . I told him he wouldnt hurt anymore. I told him good night. I told him I loved him . I told him to play and run . The nurse took his shirt off and told us to touch him , that he could feel us and we needed to feel him . I put my hand on his chest. I could feel his heart beat. Then it slowed down . Then I could not feel it anymore. I heard his first heartbeat and felt his last one .
I was texting Debra right before , texted her Julian was gone, she called and got in her car and came.
I got Mamie, she told Ju bye.And Papy.
We got the boys and told them . Sam asked if we were sure he was gone. Then he said it was wierd because he didnt feel like crying . Then he asked to hold him . I needed to clean and dress Ju first .
Debra got here, helped me a little, cried a lot... They are not supposed to get attached,how can you not get attached to Ju?
I held Julian . Debra gave him a bed bath , as she had been doing for the past few weeks, put lotion all over him , loved and kissed on him . 1 month ago , she didnt even know him , now she is grieving just as we are . That is what Julian is all about . LOVE, unconditional love... He touched Debra, she touched my heart...
Ken , Debra, Mamie, Sam , Gma and I held Julian. Maybe others did , I am not sure.
Dana and Jessi came.Pastor Kevin and Vicki, Zach and Sam.Diane came by, Pastor Blair and Pat. Vickie and Gerald. Nanny.
It is now 6 something pm. Dana and her family are still here with us . I love those guys! Thank you ...
Funeral home men came to get him this afternoon. Ken carried him to the van , with his blankie (his Christmas blankie he would share with every one) one of his mimis and one of his dinosaurs.
We dont know any details on viewing and funeral yet. We will let you know, just make sure you have your YELLOW SHIRTS HANDY !!!!
FLY HIGH MUNCHKIN ... I love you all the way to China, you are the best ,you know that? I love your smell too baby...
Your mama, your little mama ...
Here's her post for yesterday:
I was just going to post "Fly high" , then the arrangements, but that wouldn't be personal, therefore it wouldn't be me...
Last night was , well, was not the best... I couldn't fall asleep , I didn't want to fall asleep , that meant letting go ... Letting go of the last moments we had with him, as aweful as they were .
When I crawled into bed, Ken had already gone to sleep. I held on to Julian's nemo pillow we used for his legs for the past few weeks. It smelled like him. Smell is everything to Julian as you all know...It is to me.
This morning we went to Church.So much love, so much support, so many tears for my little man. My church family is everything i needed...
This afternoon, lots of emotions, decisions to make at the funeral home. Most of it was already done though... The man there cried. He knew ,just as we do, that burrying a child should NEVER happen...
We came home,dinner was brought, ate ,hung out...
A few people came by today, The Hardistys, Of course Dana ,Zach and family, Vicki with the boys to pick up a puppy, Annette and Chance, Cindy Q. , Patty , Sandra and their girls, Linda, Cindy A. , Gpa and Gma, Garry and Peggy, and last but not least our new family members Debra and Zach, (we love you guys!! )Of course my big mama has moved in again...
Now, Mamie, Teresa and I are watching Ju's life video and a few others, on our TV . It feels so good to hear his voice, yet it hurts so deep...
The arragements go as follow...
Viewing wednesday 23rd from 6 to 8pm at our Church . Funeral service at 11am ,also at our Church, We will then release hundreds of yellow balloons, after Jacob's prayer gets read(wish you were here ,lil man) Then we will have some stuff to munch on in the fellowship hall... at 1.30pm we will have the grave site gathering...
Our Church is at 1600 N. Old Decatur rd Saginaw tx 76179
( MAP IT !! )
We would like for people to wear yellow shirts... If you dont mind please do not send flowers, but rather donate $$$ to Cook Children's in Fort worth (www.cookchildrens.org) or to Make A Wish fundation ( http://www.wish.org/ )
For anything else (cards you want to send ) here is the address again,
Avery Family
111 aviator dr
Fort Worth,Tx 76179
Let me know if I forgot anything...
Oh and by the way, how amazing are you guys!!! more than 500 messages were left on here since yesterday ...(if you wonder if I have read them all , NO... Not yet...)
one more thing KEEP THE CANDLES BURNING FOR OUR LIL KING !!!
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=JuJu
391 candles from 14 countries....
here is the poem...
Fly high…
Fly high, lil man,
The sun and you are one.
You won’t ever be cold again,
I will always keep my eyes to the skies…
Today, the sunshine was a little warmer,
Tonight, the Milky Way a little brighter.
I feel your hand in mine and your face on my chest.
I feel you looking up at me,
Begging for a kiss.
“Just one more kiss, Mama…
One more dinosaur kiss,
Because I really like you “
Come closer baby, It is ok now,
You are done fighting ,
You are done hurting.
Give me one more smile,
One more silly face,
And one more hug…
You can go, now,you can go,
The boys will be fine,
Daddy and I will love on them for you…
My heart is shattered, baby,
But so much bigger,so full of love…
I will miss you forever…
So for now, Fly high, lil man…
With your brand new wings,
Fly high, all the way to Heaven…
Good night, sweet pea, sleep tight,
Your mama, the lil one…
(1-20-08)
Update on my camera: I went to church yesterday believing that it was going to be sitting there on the bleachers knowing it would be a miracle if it survived 3 basketball games. It wasn't there. I'm not sure what to do -- buy a new one or just hold out waiting for that miracle? It's just upsetting because there were so many pictures that I could have captured this week. . . if only I had my camera.
Here's the update on my friend, Juilan. Please pray for his mom, Mimi, and his family. I cannot imagine what they are going through.
267 January 19, 2008 at 06:55 PM CST
Time of Death ,11:22am ... Never thought I would ever hear these words about my 4 1/2 year old son. But this morning , those words got engraved in my mind and my heart forever.
Julian fought until the last painful breath. Again NOTHING peaceful about this process until , until he stopped gasping for air.
Julian looked like a fish out of the water, trying so hard to fill those lungs ,but nothing. You could see the normal breathing motions his body made, but nothing got past his throat.Finally he stopped fighting.
When he started having a hard time breathing I went to get Ken . He stood on one side of the bed and i was on there with Julian . We talked him thru his transition . We told him it would be ok . We told him we were proud of him . I told him to say Hi to Jesus for me. I told him that Cody and Jacob were waiting for him . I told him that we would be ok . I told him he wouldnt hurt anymore. I told him good night. I told him I loved him . I told him to play and run . The nurse took his shirt off and told us to touch him , that he could feel us and we needed to feel him . I put my hand on his chest. I could feel his heart beat. Then it slowed down . Then I could not feel it anymore. I heard his first heartbeat and felt his last one .
I was texting Debra right before , texted her Julian was gone, she called and got in her car and came.
I got Mamie, she told Ju bye.And Papy.
We got the boys and told them . Sam asked if we were sure he was gone. Then he said it was wierd because he didnt feel like crying . Then he asked to hold him . I needed to clean and dress Ju first .
Debra got here, helped me a little, cried a lot... They are not supposed to get attached,how can you not get attached to Ju?
I held Julian . Debra gave him a bed bath , as she had been doing for the past few weeks, put lotion all over him , loved and kissed on him . 1 month ago , she didnt even know him , now she is grieving just as we are . That is what Julian is all about . LOVE, unconditional love... He touched Debra, she touched my heart...
Ken , Debra, Mamie, Sam , Gma and I held Julian. Maybe others did , I am not sure.
Dana and Jessi came.Pastor Kevin and Vicki, Zach and Sam.Diane came by, Pastor Blair and Pat. Vickie and Gerald. Nanny.
It is now 6 something pm. Dana and her family are still here with us . I love those guys! Thank you ...
Funeral home men came to get him this afternoon. Ken carried him to the van , with his blankie (his Christmas blankie he would share with every one) one of his mimis and one of his dinosaurs.
We dont know any details on viewing and funeral yet. We will let you know, just make sure you have your YELLOW SHIRTS HANDY !!!!
FLY HIGH MUNCHKIN ... I love you all the way to China, you are the best ,you know that? I love your smell too baby...
Your mama, your little mama ...
Here's her post for yesterday:
I was just going to post "Fly high" , then the arrangements, but that wouldn't be personal, therefore it wouldn't be me...
Last night was , well, was not the best... I couldn't fall asleep , I didn't want to fall asleep , that meant letting go ... Letting go of the last moments we had with him, as aweful as they were .
When I crawled into bed, Ken had already gone to sleep. I held on to Julian's nemo pillow we used for his legs for the past few weeks. It smelled like him. Smell is everything to Julian as you all know...It is to me.
This morning we went to Church.So much love, so much support, so many tears for my little man. My church family is everything i needed...
This afternoon, lots of emotions, decisions to make at the funeral home. Most of it was already done though... The man there cried. He knew ,just as we do, that burrying a child should NEVER happen...
We came home,dinner was brought, ate ,hung out...
A few people came by today, The Hardistys, Of course Dana ,Zach and family, Vicki with the boys to pick up a puppy, Annette and Chance, Cindy Q. , Patty , Sandra and their girls, Linda, Cindy A. , Gpa and Gma, Garry and Peggy, and last but not least our new family members Debra and Zach, (we love you guys!! )Of course my big mama has moved in again...
Now, Mamie, Teresa and I are watching Ju's life video and a few others, on our TV . It feels so good to hear his voice, yet it hurts so deep...
The arragements go as follow...
Viewing wednesday 23rd from 6 to 8pm at our Church . Funeral service at 11am ,also at our Church, We will then release hundreds of yellow balloons, after Jacob's prayer gets read(wish you were here ,lil man) Then we will have some stuff to munch on in the fellowship hall... at 1.30pm we will have the grave site gathering...
Our Church is at 1600 N. Old Decatur rd Saginaw tx 76179
( MAP IT !! )
We would like for people to wear yellow shirts... If you dont mind please do not send flowers, but rather donate $$$ to Cook Children's in Fort worth (www.cookchildrens.org) or to Make A Wish fundation ( http://www.wish.org/ )
For anything else (cards you want to send ) here is the address again,
Avery Family
111 aviator dr
Fort Worth,Tx 76179
Let me know if I forgot anything...
Oh and by the way, how amazing are you guys!!! more than 500 messages were left on here since yesterday ...(if you wonder if I have read them all , NO... Not yet...)
one more thing KEEP THE CANDLES BURNING FOR OUR LIL KING !!!
http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=JuJu
391 candles from 14 countries....
here is the poem...
Fly high…
Fly high, lil man,
The sun and you are one.
You won’t ever be cold again,
I will always keep my eyes to the skies…
Today, the sunshine was a little warmer,
Tonight, the Milky Way a little brighter.
I feel your hand in mine and your face on my chest.
I feel you looking up at me,
Begging for a kiss.
“Just one more kiss, Mama…
One more dinosaur kiss,
Because I really like you “
Come closer baby, It is ok now,
You are done fighting ,
You are done hurting.
Give me one more smile,
One more silly face,
And one more hug…
You can go, now,you can go,
The boys will be fine,
Daddy and I will love on them for you…
My heart is shattered, baby,
But so much bigger,so full of love…
I will miss you forever…
So for now, Fly high, lil man…
With your brand new wings,
Fly high, all the way to Heaven…
Good night, sweet pea, sleep tight,
Your mama, the lil one…
(1-20-08)
Update on my camera: I went to church yesterday believing that it was going to be sitting there on the bleachers knowing it would be a miracle if it survived 3 basketball games. It wasn't there. I'm not sure what to do -- buy a new one or just hold out waiting for that miracle? It's just upsetting because there were so many pictures that I could have captured this week. . . if only I had my camera.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
My AWESOME husband
I'm telling you, I think I'm the most blessed person in the whole world. . at least the most blessed wife!! ;) I think my husband has finally figured out that my love language is gifts and he has outdone himself!!
When my office was finished, I needed a desk. I was willing to search Goodwill or something, but we went on a date one night and Aaron asked me if I wanted to go look at desks. I thought that would be fine, but not expecting to buy one. We walked in Office Max and about 15 minutes later, walked out with a brand new desk!! It's black and is in an L shape, so I can work on my laptop, but still have room to work with papers!! I love it!!
Then, the UPS man comes the next week and drops off a box. I wasn't sure what it was, but it was addressed to Aaron. I went ahead and opened it up and there was a leopard print office chair!! It's for my new office, too!! We've been using it at home because my office is quite the disaster area at the moment, but I love it, too!! I'm thinking we need the zebra print one for home to go with my other new thing.
I've had my computer in the kitchen since March and Aaron gets quite annoyed at the clutter that can accumulate on that table. I see it at organized chaos because I know where everything is on that table, but he hates it. Before Christmas, I found a computer armoire at Walmart.com and showed it to Aaron. We couldn't get it at the time, but on New Year's day, he told me to order it. It came in and a piece was broken and so we just got the replacement last night. After life group Aaron finished putting it together and I love it, too!!
The coolest part is that he put everything together, too!! I know that he HATES reading directions and putting things together, but he did it for me!! I love everything and I am so thankful!!!
My plan was to do this post once everything came in and post pictures, so here's the post. . . I would take pictures, but see the post below.
When my office was finished, I needed a desk. I was willing to search Goodwill or something, but we went on a date one night and Aaron asked me if I wanted to go look at desks. I thought that would be fine, but not expecting to buy one. We walked in Office Max and about 15 minutes later, walked out with a brand new desk!! It's black and is in an L shape, so I can work on my laptop, but still have room to work with papers!! I love it!!
Then, the UPS man comes the next week and drops off a box. I wasn't sure what it was, but it was addressed to Aaron. I went ahead and opened it up and there was a leopard print office chair!! It's for my new office, too!! We've been using it at home because my office is quite the disaster area at the moment, but I love it, too!! I'm thinking we need the zebra print one for home to go with my other new thing.
I've had my computer in the kitchen since March and Aaron gets quite annoyed at the clutter that can accumulate on that table. I see it at organized chaos because I know where everything is on that table, but he hates it. Before Christmas, I found a computer armoire at Walmart.com and showed it to Aaron. We couldn't get it at the time, but on New Year's day, he told me to order it. It came in and a piece was broken and so we just got the replacement last night. After life group Aaron finished putting it together and I love it, too!!
The coolest part is that he put everything together, too!! I know that he HATES reading directions and putting things together, but he did it for me!! I love everything and I am so thankful!!!
My plan was to do this post once everything came in and post pictures, so here's the post. . . I would take pictures, but see the post below.
Monday, January 14, 2008
UGGGGHHHH!! Please pray!!!
I take my digital camera to church on Sundays so that we can use it to take pictures for our security cards. It's Monday night and I can't find it!! Nicole said she put it by my purse. I was talking to Krissy when I left and I don't remember if I picked it up or not. It's not in my car and it's not in the house (that I've found yet). Please pray that it will turn up at my house or that someone turned it in at the school!!
UPDATE:
Called Nicole again -- not in the registration box.
Called Krissy -- she doesn't have it.
Stopped by the school -- nobody has turned it in.
She called the janitor -- hasn't seen it.
Tore up my house -- still haven't found it.
I forgot to mention that last night they had a basketball game in that gym. Please pray that whoever finds it will be honest and turn it in!!
UPDATE:
Called Nicole again -- not in the registration box.
Called Krissy -- she doesn't have it.
Stopped by the school -- nobody has turned it in.
She called the janitor -- hasn't seen it.
Tore up my house -- still haven't found it.
I forgot to mention that last night they had a basketball game in that gym. Please pray that whoever finds it will be honest and turn it in!!
Friday, January 11, 2008
My Find of the Week
Payton started school off this week by coming home with holes in the knees of his pants -- on Monday & Tuesday!! The kid only has 3 pair (maybe 4) anyway!! So, now he's down to 1 pair of pants that he can wear to school (besides his wind pants). So, I was going to make a run to Wal-Mart yesterday afternoon when I was remembered that Sears has their Kids Advantage club. This is where if your kids clothes that you buy there wear out before they outgrow them, you can bring them back for a new pair. This applies to socks, shoes, shirts, pants . . anything!
I paid $10.99 for Payton a pair of jeans and if he wears them to school today and comes home with a hole, I just take them back to Sears for a new pair!! Plus, the jeans I bought him have a double knee where the knee is thicker or tighter sewn or something.
I had to buy Payton a size 7 Regular and Evan is in a 6 Slim!! I did spend $16.99 on Evan's jeans, but they fit him so good. They are long enough and just a little big in the waist. But, as long as he's in that size, if he puts a hole in them (which will probably happen as much as that kid falls down) we go get a new pair!!
Just wanted to pass along my great find! This is especially good if you have boys!
I paid $10.99 for Payton a pair of jeans and if he wears them to school today and comes home with a hole, I just take them back to Sears for a new pair!! Plus, the jeans I bought him have a double knee where the knee is thicker or tighter sewn or something.
I had to buy Payton a size 7 Regular and Evan is in a 6 Slim!! I did spend $16.99 on Evan's jeans, but they fit him so good. They are long enough and just a little big in the waist. But, as long as he's in that size, if he puts a hole in them (which will probably happen as much as that kid falls down) we go get a new pair!!
Just wanted to pass along my great find! This is especially good if you have boys!
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Just a few pics
Here's Jaxon just over 1 month old:
Look at those cheeks:
Here's Jaxon (1 month) & Justus (4 months). These 2 are destined to be friends!
Look at those cheeks:
Here's Jaxon (1 month) & Justus (4 months). These 2 are destined to be friends!
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Few Things from This Week
Last week, I was so frustrated because Jaxon wouldn't sleep during the day. Actually, he would but for only 30 minutes or so. Then, he would get so tired that he couldn't sleep, so he just fussed all day long. At night, he did just fine getting up 2-3 times a night.
So, we started off the new year by him learning how to go to sleep on his own. It was a rough first day, but by the second day, he was going to sleep on his own with very little fussing. Today he went down without any!!
Also, last night I fed him at 8:00 and topped him off at 10. He slept until 2:30 am and didn't get up again until 6:00!! He woke up at 7 and Aaron went in and burped him and changed him and put him back down. He slept until 9 am!!! Then, when it was nap time he went down without fussing!! YAY!! I feel like I can get some things accomplished around here!!
On another note, I am official!! Check out my new office:
From the back of KLF Downtown. My office is on the left and Ira's is on the right.
From outside my office
From the door looking toward the stage
From the stage door looking back at the main door
I am so excited about my new "apartment" as BC calls it. Our offices are HUGE!! I don't think these pictures really show the size of it!! It's going to be perfect for when I have to go to the office and take the boys with me. They can be in there with me without bothering anyone else and it's big enough that we're not cramped in there! I am so excited about having my own space, too. Ira and I have been sharing an office for over a year now and I'm ready to have my own. That way my pens don't walk off and I know my stuff is secure. Plus, when I get a chance to go to the church and work, I don't have to worry about not having a desk/computer to work on or who is in the office. It's my own space and I am thrilled about it!! Final paint is going on tomorrow and then it's move in day!!
So, we started off the new year by him learning how to go to sleep on his own. It was a rough first day, but by the second day, he was going to sleep on his own with very little fussing. Today he went down without any!!
Also, last night I fed him at 8:00 and topped him off at 10. He slept until 2:30 am and didn't get up again until 6:00!! He woke up at 7 and Aaron went in and burped him and changed him and put him back down. He slept until 9 am!!! Then, when it was nap time he went down without fussing!! YAY!! I feel like I can get some things accomplished around here!!
On another note, I am official!! Check out my new office:
From the back of KLF Downtown. My office is on the left and Ira's is on the right.
From outside my office
From the door looking toward the stage
From the stage door looking back at the main door
I am so excited about my new "apartment" as BC calls it. Our offices are HUGE!! I don't think these pictures really show the size of it!! It's going to be perfect for when I have to go to the office and take the boys with me. They can be in there with me without bothering anyone else and it's big enough that we're not cramped in there! I am so excited about having my own space, too. Ira and I have been sharing an office for over a year now and I'm ready to have my own. That way my pens don't walk off and I know my stuff is secure. Plus, when I get a chance to go to the church and work, I don't have to worry about not having a desk/computer to work on or who is in the office. It's my own space and I am thrilled about it!! Final paint is going on tomorrow and then it's move in day!!
Monday, December 24, 2007
Angels Around Us
This Christmas has been a trip for the record books!! The trip to Aaron's parents' house was pretty uneventful. Jaxon did great on the drive and he only got up one time the first night!!
Saturday morning, we woke up and the boys and I were going to head to my parents' house, but my mom called and said not to come without Aaron because it was blowing snow so bad she couldn't see her back fence. So, we waited on Aaron to finish hunting and we piled in the car. When we left Wheeler, it was just starting to snow just a little bit.
But, as we neared Pampa (40 miles away), the blowing snow got worse. We had to slow way down in spots because we couldn't see very well and the roads were starting to get icy. The road comes to a Y and we weren't even sure how we were going to get out into the road.
We made it into the road and we met a pickup who was flashing his lights. Aaron slowed way down because he thought that meant there was a wreck up ahead. He was right. We were driving along and the snow was blowing, but all of a sudden, we were in a whiteout. We couldn't see a thing!! Then, I look over to the side and there is a semi-truck and a pickup in the ditch. Both of which are really bashed in. There were car parts in the road that we were having to dodge while trying not to run into the person in front of us. I look to the other side of the road and there is another semi-truck and a car or two.
We keep seeing cars in the ditches on each side. We're trying not to hit the person in front of us and we're praying that nobody is coming up behind us. We see a black SUV . . at least I think it was a SUV. The top was crumpled and bashed in. The windshield and windows were busted out. We see a man pulling a woman out of it by her legs through a hole that she would barely fit through. It was a miracle that she only had a scratch on her face about the size of a quarter. We felt bad for her and wanted to stop and let her get in because it was so cold outside, but we had to keep moving to keep from getting hit and we didn't have any room, either.
I cannot tell you how bad that situation was. We know that there had to be at least one person dead, but we thought there would be more. That was the first time I think I've ever felt 100% out of control and where we had to completely rely on God to get us through. The kids were watching a movie, so they didn't see any of it. I'm really thankful for that. It was scaring Aaron and I enough that I can't imagine what my kids would have thought. Or it might not have really registered to them. We probably missed being in the middle of this wreck by 10 minutes or so.
I'm not even doing the story justice as I type (I'm really tired), but I'm so thankful that we had angels on our side! Here's a link to the local story:
26 Car Pile Up
We made it through and made it to Aaron's grandpa's house were we were able to wait out the storm. It was quite an adventure. A trip that should have taken an hour and a half ended up taking 6 hours! But we arrived save and in one piece. . . for that I am thankful.
Saturday morning, we woke up and the boys and I were going to head to my parents' house, but my mom called and said not to come without Aaron because it was blowing snow so bad she couldn't see her back fence. So, we waited on Aaron to finish hunting and we piled in the car. When we left Wheeler, it was just starting to snow just a little bit.
But, as we neared Pampa (40 miles away), the blowing snow got worse. We had to slow way down in spots because we couldn't see very well and the roads were starting to get icy. The road comes to a Y and we weren't even sure how we were going to get out into the road.
We made it into the road and we met a pickup who was flashing his lights. Aaron slowed way down because he thought that meant there was a wreck up ahead. He was right. We were driving along and the snow was blowing, but all of a sudden, we were in a whiteout. We couldn't see a thing!! Then, I look over to the side and there is a semi-truck and a pickup in the ditch. Both of which are really bashed in. There were car parts in the road that we were having to dodge while trying not to run into the person in front of us. I look to the other side of the road and there is another semi-truck and a car or two.
We keep seeing cars in the ditches on each side. We're trying not to hit the person in front of us and we're praying that nobody is coming up behind us. We see a black SUV . . at least I think it was a SUV. The top was crumpled and bashed in. The windshield and windows were busted out. We see a man pulling a woman out of it by her legs through a hole that she would barely fit through. It was a miracle that she only had a scratch on her face about the size of a quarter. We felt bad for her and wanted to stop and let her get in because it was so cold outside, but we had to keep moving to keep from getting hit and we didn't have any room, either.
I cannot tell you how bad that situation was. We know that there had to be at least one person dead, but we thought there would be more. That was the first time I think I've ever felt 100% out of control and where we had to completely rely on God to get us through. The kids were watching a movie, so they didn't see any of it. I'm really thankful for that. It was scaring Aaron and I enough that I can't imagine what my kids would have thought. Or it might not have really registered to them. We probably missed being in the middle of this wreck by 10 minutes or so.
I'm not even doing the story justice as I type (I'm really tired), but I'm so thankful that we had angels on our side! Here's a link to the local story:
26 Car Pile Up
We made it through and made it to Aaron's grandpa's house were we were able to wait out the storm. It was quite an adventure. A trip that should have taken an hour and a half ended up taking 6 hours! But we arrived save and in one piece. . . for that I am thankful.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Update on THAT day
Aaron called the hospital this morning. He talked to a lady who said they had lost our paperwork. Then, they found it and they had put someone else's charges on my account. So, she found the paper work this morning and zeroed out my balance.
They called last week and told us we owed $275 for an extra night, but that was even zeroed out this morning!!
They called last week and told us we owed $275 for an extra night, but that was even zeroed out this morning!!
PRAISE GOD!!! I knew I was His favorite!!
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
One of THOSE days
Just wanted to blog about my day yesterday. . might get a little lengthy.
* Got up and fed Jaxon. Got him back to sleep.
* Checked e-mail and blogs.
* Took a shower.
* Jaxon awake again.
* Time for relational meeting at the church. . . I love those things! Yesterday's was especially fun just chatting about whatever came up.
* Had to leave early because I had to go to Wal-Mart and Jaxon had had enough meeting!! Jaxon falls alseep on the way.
* Go to Wal-Mart to exchange some diapers. Jaxon starts screaming and won't stop unless he's held. But, I can't hold/carry him and push the buggy at the same time.
* Decide to go to the bathroom and feed him.
Here's where things get to be one of THOSE days:
I go in the "family bathroom" because I knew I could keep a close eye on Evan and I wouldn't have to sit on the toilet to feed Jaxon. I change his diaper and start to feed him when my phone rings. Evan has the need to answer it and goes through his questions: Who is this? What do you want? etc.
He hands me the phone and tells me it's Sally. I was thinking it was the mom of the boy that we pick up from school, but no such luck. This Sally is from ARMC and she proceeds to tell me that I have a balance of $3800 and would I like to pay for it today on a credit card or with my debit card.
Now, as I'm sitting here talking to her, I'm feeding Jaxon. Evan is peeing in the toilet and wants to flush it. I convince him not to. Then, he has to wash his hands and dry them. . . talk about loud! Then, Sally makes some comment about how loud it is and how it's hard being a mom. If I could have reached through that phone and slapped her, I would have!
I explain to Sally that we already paid what we were supposed to pay. She tells me that what I paid was a deposit and not the full amount. I explain to her that the lady told me that if there were any other charges, someone would come to my room and collect the extra before I left the hospital. That was the only way to get the discount. Sally said that the $3800 is for blood work, how long I was in the delivery room, and how long I was in my room and because I paid the "deposit", they weren't concerned about coming to my room to collect the rest. I told her that I was in the delivery room for 1 hour and that this extra $3800 is not what we agreed to.
Then, Sally asks me if maybe my mom or my mother-in-law would help me pay this bill. My jaw hit the floor!! What in the world?!?! I explained to her that I don't have $4000 sitting in a savings account somewhere and even if I did, I don't owe them anything. I already paid what I was supposed to pay. I explained to her that we called and asked what the amount would be and we saved up that much money and I'm not paying for the other stuff.
By this time, I'm having to get on to Evan for turning on the hand dryer again and again. Jaxon is screaming and there is a lady outside the door waiting to use our bathroom. Sally gives me her number and tells me to get back with her. I was so frustrated I just started crying.
I finished feeding Jaxon . . . still hearing the lady outside our bathroom talk about how she was waiting on this bathroom. Jaxon won't go back in his carseat. He wants to be held. I hold Jaxon with one arm and push with the other. It works for a short amount of time.
* I fly through Wal-Mart picking up the things I need.
* Jaxon finally goes back to sleep.
* Go to pick up Alicia's (my college friend) mail, etc.
* Go to Aaron's office to drop off some of his flooring.
* Before we leave to go pick up the kids, Evan wakes Jaxon up and Jaxon wants to eat again. But, it's time to pick up the kids and get them home.
* Go pick up the kids -- all 4 of them. . . Jaxon screaming.
* I'm so totally frazzled by Sally and Jaxon screaming. Brandi helps me get the kids in the car. I laugh and tell her that I think I need something strong to drink and now I understand why people say that! ;)
* She gives me $20 and tells me to use it to buy dinner. . . I love you, Brandi!!!
* Jaxon continues to scream. Taylor put a book in front of him and he finally stopped for 10 minutes.
* The kids are mad because Jaxon is screaming. There's nothing I can do short of stopping to feed him, but that will take 30 minutes with impatient kids in the car.
* Krissy calls and we agree to meet before our usual spot so I can get home and feed Jaxon.
* Meet Krissy. . get home. . . feed Jaxon.
* Aaron gets home and plays football with Payton and Evan.
* Some guys come over for the Monday night meeting. (I don't mind it at all.) I hide out in my bedroom wrapping a few Christmas presents.
* The guys leave.
* Get the boys to bed.
* I go to bed for the 2nd day without really talking to Aaron. . wish we could figure that one out. It always seems like someone is needing something at all times.
Please pray for us. We are leaving on Friday to go to our parents' houses. We are going to be on the road a lot over Christmas and I'm not looking forward to it. I'm not looking forward to doing all of it with a newborn. They don't sleep good when they aren't home and we will really be on the road a lot . . . did I mention that Jaxon hates his carseat? And, I'm so tired of nursing and I want to stop, but then I feel like I'm causing even more of a financial burden. . . yes, I know this is all part of a new baby. Good news is Jaxon is sleeping much better. . . only getting up every 3 hours!!! YAY for that!!
Edited to add: Now would be a good time for those checks in the mail to show up. . those gifts & surprises, those debts paid off. . . you get the idea.
Yes, Pam as I'm sitting there on the phone with Sally mad as I could be at the situation, I was at least thinking this would make good blog material!!! ;)
* Got up and fed Jaxon. Got him back to sleep.
* Checked e-mail and blogs.
* Took a shower.
* Jaxon awake again.
* Time for relational meeting at the church. . . I love those things! Yesterday's was especially fun just chatting about whatever came up.
* Had to leave early because I had to go to Wal-Mart and Jaxon had had enough meeting!! Jaxon falls alseep on the way.
* Go to Wal-Mart to exchange some diapers. Jaxon starts screaming and won't stop unless he's held. But, I can't hold/carry him and push the buggy at the same time.
* Decide to go to the bathroom and feed him.
Here's where things get to be one of THOSE days:
I go in the "family bathroom" because I knew I could keep a close eye on Evan and I wouldn't have to sit on the toilet to feed Jaxon. I change his diaper and start to feed him when my phone rings. Evan has the need to answer it and goes through his questions: Who is this? What do you want? etc.
He hands me the phone and tells me it's Sally. I was thinking it was the mom of the boy that we pick up from school, but no such luck. This Sally is from ARMC and she proceeds to tell me that I have a balance of $3800 and would I like to pay for it today on a credit card or with my debit card.
Now, as I'm sitting here talking to her, I'm feeding Jaxon. Evan is peeing in the toilet and wants to flush it. I convince him not to. Then, he has to wash his hands and dry them. . . talk about loud! Then, Sally makes some comment about how loud it is and how it's hard being a mom. If I could have reached through that phone and slapped her, I would have!
I explain to Sally that we already paid what we were supposed to pay. She tells me that what I paid was a deposit and not the full amount. I explain to her that the lady told me that if there were any other charges, someone would come to my room and collect the extra before I left the hospital. That was the only way to get the discount. Sally said that the $3800 is for blood work, how long I was in the delivery room, and how long I was in my room and because I paid the "deposit", they weren't concerned about coming to my room to collect the rest. I told her that I was in the delivery room for 1 hour and that this extra $3800 is not what we agreed to.
Then, Sally asks me if maybe my mom or my mother-in-law would help me pay this bill. My jaw hit the floor!! What in the world?!?! I explained to her that I don't have $4000 sitting in a savings account somewhere and even if I did, I don't owe them anything. I already paid what I was supposed to pay. I explained to her that we called and asked what the amount would be and we saved up that much money and I'm not paying for the other stuff.
By this time, I'm having to get on to Evan for turning on the hand dryer again and again. Jaxon is screaming and there is a lady outside the door waiting to use our bathroom. Sally gives me her number and tells me to get back with her. I was so frustrated I just started crying.
I finished feeding Jaxon . . . still hearing the lady outside our bathroom talk about how she was waiting on this bathroom. Jaxon won't go back in his carseat. He wants to be held. I hold Jaxon with one arm and push with the other. It works for a short amount of time.
* I fly through Wal-Mart picking up the things I need.
* Jaxon finally goes back to sleep.
* Go to pick up Alicia's (my college friend) mail, etc.
* Go to Aaron's office to drop off some of his flooring.
* Before we leave to go pick up the kids, Evan wakes Jaxon up and Jaxon wants to eat again. But, it's time to pick up the kids and get them home.
* Go pick up the kids -- all 4 of them. . . Jaxon screaming.
* I'm so totally frazzled by Sally and Jaxon screaming. Brandi helps me get the kids in the car. I laugh and tell her that I think I need something strong to drink and now I understand why people say that! ;)
* She gives me $20 and tells me to use it to buy dinner. . . I love you, Brandi!!!
* Jaxon continues to scream. Taylor put a book in front of him and he finally stopped for 10 minutes.
* The kids are mad because Jaxon is screaming. There's nothing I can do short of stopping to feed him, but that will take 30 minutes with impatient kids in the car.
* Krissy calls and we agree to meet before our usual spot so I can get home and feed Jaxon.
* Meet Krissy. . get home. . . feed Jaxon.
* Aaron gets home and plays football with Payton and Evan.
* Some guys come over for the Monday night meeting. (I don't mind it at all.) I hide out in my bedroom wrapping a few Christmas presents.
* The guys leave.
* Get the boys to bed.
* I go to bed for the 2nd day without really talking to Aaron. . wish we could figure that one out. It always seems like someone is needing something at all times.
Please pray for us. We are leaving on Friday to go to our parents' houses. We are going to be on the road a lot over Christmas and I'm not looking forward to it. I'm not looking forward to doing all of it with a newborn. They don't sleep good when they aren't home and we will really be on the road a lot . . . did I mention that Jaxon hates his carseat? And, I'm so tired of nursing and I want to stop, but then I feel like I'm causing even more of a financial burden. . . yes, I know this is all part of a new baby. Good news is Jaxon is sleeping much better. . . only getting up every 3 hours!!! YAY for that!!
Edited to add: Now would be a good time for those checks in the mail to show up. . those gifts & surprises, those debts paid off. . . you get the idea.
Yes, Pam as I'm sitting there on the phone with Sally mad as I could be at the situation, I was at least thinking this would make good blog material!!! ;)
Friday, December 14, 2007
2 weeks already
Jaxon had his 2-week check up today. He weighs a whopping 10 lbs. 2 oz and is 21 1/2 inches long!! Dr. S had a good chuckle when he saw 10 pounds already -- that's 2 pounds in 2 weeks!!! Jaxon started crying at one point and Dr. S said, 'Oh, are you hungry? I bet you are all the time!" I told him that yes, he does eat all the time. Dr. S said, "Are you nursing?" I said yes and he said, "I'm sorry."
Everyone wants to know how he's sleeping. . . well, we did good for 2 nights in a row!! Then last night he was up every 2 hours again. I guess that's part of it.
I keep trying to remember to make a slide show to post on here of all the pictures we've taken over the last two weeks (ok, maybe not all of them), but I keep forgetting. . . guess that's what happens when you're brain is low on sleep!! ;)
Everyone wants to know how he's sleeping. . . well, we did good for 2 nights in a row!! Then last night he was up every 2 hours again. I guess that's part of it.
I keep trying to remember to make a slide show to post on here of all the pictures we've taken over the last two weeks (ok, maybe not all of them), but I keep forgetting. . . guess that's what happens when you're brain is low on sleep!! ;)
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Just Stuff
I am refreshed!! Jaxon slept so much better last night without me giving him a bottle of formula!! I fed him at 9 and put him down. I went to bed at 9:45 (didn't even finish watching Ace of Cakes!!). Aaron did a movie night at BC's house and he got home around 11. I asked him to go check on Jaxon because it had been 2 hours. Jaxon was still snoozing!!
He woke up at midnight, 3 am, and 7 am!!! I woke up this morning thrilled!! Aaron asked me if that was good. That's really good considering he's been waking up every hour on the hour or every 2 hours since we've been home from the hospital!!! I feel like a new creation this morning!! ;)
Also, I read an update on my "friend" Julian this morning. He woke up without pain this morning and asked for spaghetti at 2 am!! Praise God!! Between 11 and 12 last night, I just prayed for him that God would turn this around. I'm so thankful that he woke up without pain!!
He woke up at midnight, 3 am, and 7 am!!! I woke up this morning thrilled!! Aaron asked me if that was good. That's really good considering he's been waking up every hour on the hour or every 2 hours since we've been home from the hospital!!! I feel like a new creation this morning!! ;)
Also, I read an update on my "friend" Julian this morning. He woke up without pain this morning and asked for spaghetti at 2 am!! Praise God!! Between 11 and 12 last night, I just prayed for him that God would turn this around. I'm so thankful that he woke up without pain!!
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