My Week In Review

I've been at home all week and I've taken a few pictures, so I thought I would review my week with those in Blogville.

My baby is doing breathing treatments:

I figured out that he doesn't scream through them if I put him in his swing so he can look at the mobile that is on it:

My boys seem to be getting bigger and bigger

Here's my bedroom before:

You'll have to wait for the AFTER pics, but here's a hint of what happened
(yes, Evan painted that):Evan had a picnic in the living room with 5 granola bars. Each one has a bite taken out of it.

My baby turns 2 months old!! His shirt says, "Kiss me I'm charming!"

So there you have it. Yes, I've been stuck in the house all day every day this week, but it's been good!!

God is GOOD!!

It's 12:33 am and I'm still awake and about to give a breathing treatment. Yes, you read that right. Jaxon has RSV. I am believing that God is going to heal him in a speedy way, but this post isn't to focus on how the enemy is trying to bring sickness on my boys this week, but to praise God for how GOOD He is!!

I've been debating all week on whether to take Jaxon to the doctor. His coughing sounded terrible, but I couldn't tell if the junk was in his throat or his chest. Thursday night, he had 2 scary episodes (well, scary for me) in the middle of the night. One time, he started coughing and he couldn't catch his breath. There wasn't anything I could do to help him, which made it even more frustrating. The second time, he had the longest, most painful, rolling burp/choking. . . that doesn't even explain it good, but it scared me because I have never heard or felt anything like that.

He got up on Friday morning, took a bottle and went right back to sleep. I went ahead and called the doctor to make an appointment. Be there at 2:30 pm. Jaxon woke up took another bottle and started smiling, etc. We headed to town, but Jaxon was acting FINE! I almost called to cancel the appointment, but decided to go ahead with it since it was Friday.

Here's where God gets good!! We sign in at the desk at 2:35 pm and we were in a room waiting on the doctor at 2:45 pm!! That in itself is a miracle! Usually during this time of year, you can wait HOURS to get back there!

Dr. S came in to look at him. (Jaxon now weighs 14 lbs. 15 oz. by the way!) I told him I just wanted to make sure the junk wasn't in his chest. He took one look at him and said, "Well, it is." He talked to me about RSV and what it meant. I remembered all of it from Evan. Dr. S said if I had let it go over the weekend, it could have gotten bad enough quick enough to put him in the hospital. Dr. S finished his exam and asked me if I had insurance. I said no. He said, "OH NO!" I said, "Yeah, just what I was thinking." I know this medicine is expensive -- could be around $200 for a box of it!

He told me he had samples of the medicine he would give me. He would give Jaxon a prescription, but it wouldn't be too bad. Then he said something about the machine. I said, "Oh I have one of those." He said, "Oh good!! That's a relief. So, this won't be so bad." He gave me the mask and the tubes for free.

So, all in all, it cost me $60 for the office visit and $4 for the prescription!! $4 for the medicine out of my pocket!! This medicine is really expensive and God GAVE it to me!!

Well, continue to believe for a speedy recovery for Jaxon (and for Miles, by the way). 12:45 am . . time for a breathing treatment!

I have to brag. . . for just a minute!

Evan and Jaxon have been under the weather since Tuesday evening. Evan got a fever kind of all of a sudden and started this nasty coughing. Jaxon has a nasty cough, but no fever.

Aaron had an early appointment on Wednesday morning, so I had to take Payton to school. I was a little nervous about how I was going to get all of us dressed, fed, etc. and out the door by 7:30 am. Tuesday night I tucked Payton into bed and told him that the next morning, I needed him to jump out of bed and get dressed because it would be a great help to me. He asked me to heat up pancakes for his breakfast. He was sweet and told me I could heat them up when I got up and then he would just eat them when he was ready - already helping me!!

I was up quite a bit Tuesday night between Jaxon & Evan. At 6 am I decided to just go ahead an get in the shower and get a head start on everything that had to take place before 7:30. I got out, got myself together and it was time to wake the boys up. I went in and told Payton to get up and he did. In about 10 minutes, he came out of his room completely dressed -- even his shoes! One down, 2 to go!

Evan still wasn't feeling good and Payton was taking care of him. Payton kept asking Evan how he was feeling. I was feeding Jaxon and Evan couldn't get his shoes on, so Payton did it for him. Payton offered his breakfast to Evan and said he would eat at school. I told Payton that I could fix them both breakfast if he wanted some. He said yes. (I'm not sure what he was thinking when he said he would eat at school. They don't have breakfast at school.)

I had just planned on getting Jaxon ready at coffee that morning and just taking him in his pajamas. But, I had decided to take the boys to the doctor instead, so while I was getting Jaxon changed and dressed, I guess Evan threw up in the living room floor. I walked by the bathroom door and Evan is over the toilet and Payton is rubbing his back telling him it will be ok and to just make it in the toilet.

I almost wanted to cry because he was being so sweet!! When I asked what happened, Payton told me that Evan took too big of drink of Gatorade and he threw up in the living room. I know Payton could see the frustration (not at Evan, just the situation) on my face when he said, "It's ok, mom. I cleaned it up."

Sure enough. . . Payton had cleaned up the spot almost where I couldn't even tell! I kept telling Payton over and over how much I appreciated him.

We got everyone in the car and Payton helped Evan buckle his seatbelt, which he hates doing. Then, he crawled in the front seat and off we went at 7:40 am. We made it to school on time and as Payton got out of the car to walk in the school, I was the proudest mom on the planet!!

Last night, Aaron said he would stay with the boys and I could go to life group. Payton & I were walking out the door when Evan jumped off the couch with his eyes swollen and red and his cheeks bright red. He said, "Mom! I'm feeling all better!" He wanted to go to life group so bad! I asked him if he would like it if Anna was going to get what he had. He said no. I explained that when we're sick, we stay home so that other people don't get what we have. He climbed back on the couch and Payton said, "It's ok, Evan. We'll be right back."

After life group, we were about to leave when Payton asked if he could get a cookie. I told him he could get one and he said, "But I need 2. I need to get one for Evan." GOSH!! What happened to this kid?!?! I love it!

We walked back in our house and Payton said, "Evan, how are you feeling?" Evan said, "My fever broke, but now it's back again." Payton said, "Well, I got you a cookie. Want to eat it in the kitchen?" Evan jumped off the couch and they enjoyed their cookies together.

Last night as I was going to bed, I was again reminded how fast my kids are growing up. But, I'm glad they're growing up as friends.

Here It Is

I love this picture!

It has been FOUND!!

This morning when I got up, I felt like I was supposed to go look in my car for my camera. Let me assure you that I have tore that thing up looking for my camera several times. So, I dismissed the thought and went about my day. But I kept thinking to go look in my car.

So, I bundled up and pulled my car into the garage so I could shut the garage door and be a little warmer. I cleaned out the front of the car and nothing. I got to the backseat and put my hand under the middle seat and viola!! There sat my camera!!

I had to laugh!! All morning I was searching online for a new camera, but I couldn't even get excited about a NEW camera because I wanted my old one back. . . not to mention the money I was going to have to spend, which I have allocated to something else.

Now I realize that if I would have just listened to that voice telling me to look in there this morning, I wouldn't have wasted my whole morning online comparing cameras and I might have gotten all my laundry put away by now!!

Anyway, I'm so excited!! I can finally take pictures of Jaxon's smile!!

Hug Your Kids Today -- BEWARE -- You might cry

The other night, I was sweeping the kitchen floor wondering how many crumbs one child can make from a grilled cheese sandwich. Did he even get any in his mouth? But just as quick as I had that thought, God told me, "You know, those crumbs won't be there forever." I stood corrected. He is right. My kids won't always be little forever. One day I'm going to look up and there won't be crumbs on my floor, but my boys will be bigger. I am really cherishing my middle of the night feedings with Jaxon knowing this very well could be my last baby. Today I'm also very thankful for those bread crumbs on the floor.

Here's the update on my friend, Juilan. Please pray for his mom, Mimi, and his family. I cannot imagine what they are going through.

267 January 19, 2008 at 06:55 PM CST
Time of Death ,11:22am ... Never thought I would ever hear these words about my 4 1/2 year old son. But this morning , those words got engraved in my mind and my heart forever.
Julian fought until the last painful breath. Again NOTHING peaceful about this process until , until he stopped gasping for air.
Julian looked like a fish out of the water, trying so hard to fill those lungs ,but nothing. You could see the normal breathing motions his body made, but nothing got past his throat.Finally he stopped fighting.
When he started having a hard time breathing I went to get Ken . He stood on one side of the bed and i was on there with Julian . We talked him thru his transition . We told him it would be ok . We told him we were proud of him . I told him to say Hi to Jesus for me. I told him that Cody and Jacob were waiting for him . I told him that we would be ok . I told him he wouldnt hurt anymore. I told him good night. I told him I loved him . I told him to play and run . The nurse took his shirt off and told us to touch him , that he could feel us and we needed to feel him . I put my hand on his chest. I could feel his heart beat. Then it slowed down . Then I could not feel it anymore. I heard his first heartbeat and felt his last one .
I was texting Debra right before , texted her Julian was gone, she called and got in her car and came.
I got Mamie, she told Ju bye.And Papy.
We got the boys and told them . Sam asked if we were sure he was gone. Then he said it was wierd because he didnt feel like crying . Then he asked to hold him . I needed to clean and dress Ju first .
Debra got here, helped me a little, cried a lot... They are not supposed to get attached,how can you not get attached to Ju?
I held Julian . Debra gave him a bed bath , as she had been doing for the past few weeks, put lotion all over him , loved and kissed on him . 1 month ago , she didnt even know him , now she is grieving just as we are . That is what Julian is all about . LOVE, unconditional love... He touched Debra, she touched my heart...
Ken , Debra, Mamie, Sam , Gma and I held Julian. Maybe others did , I am not sure.
Dana and Jessi came.Pastor Kevin and Vicki, Zach and Sam.Diane came by, Pastor Blair and Pat. Vickie and Gerald. Nanny.
It is now 6 something pm. Dana and her family are still here with us . I love those guys! Thank you ...
Funeral home men came to get him this afternoon. Ken carried him to the van , with his blankie (his Christmas blankie he would share with every one) one of his mimis and one of his dinosaurs.
We dont know any details on viewing and funeral yet. We will let you know, just make sure you have your YELLOW SHIRTS HANDY !!!!

FLY HIGH MUNCHKIN ... I love you all the way to China, you are the best ,you know that? I love your smell too baby...

Your mama, your little mama ...


Here's her post for yesterday:
I was just going to post "Fly high" , then the arrangements, but that wouldn't be personal, therefore it wouldn't be me...
Last night was , well, was not the best... I couldn't fall asleep , I didn't want to fall asleep , that meant letting go ... Letting go of the last moments we had with him, as aweful as they were .
When I crawled into bed, Ken had already gone to sleep. I held on to Julian's nemo pillow we used for his legs for the past few weeks. It smelled like him. Smell is everything to Julian as you all know...It is to me.
This morning we went to Church.So much love, so much support, so many tears for my little man. My church family is everything i needed...
This afternoon, lots of emotions, decisions to make at the funeral home. Most of it was already done though... The man there cried. He knew ,just as we do, that burrying a child should NEVER happen...
We came home,dinner was brought, ate ,hung out...
A few people came by today, The Hardistys, Of course Dana ,Zach and family, Vicki with the boys to pick up a puppy, Annette and Chance, Cindy Q. , Patty , Sandra and their girls, Linda, Cindy A. , Gpa and Gma, Garry and Peggy, and last but not least our new family members Debra and Zach, (we love you guys!! )Of course my big mama has moved in again...
Now, Mamie, Teresa and I are watching Ju's life video and a few others, on our TV . It feels so good to hear his voice, yet it hurts so deep...
The arragements go as follow...

Viewing wednesday 23rd from 6 to 8pm at our Church . Funeral service at 11am ,also at our Church, We will then release hundreds of yellow balloons, after Jacob's prayer gets read(wish you were here ,lil man) Then we will have some stuff to munch on in the fellowship hall... at 1.30pm we will have the grave site gathering...

Our Church is at 1600 N. Old Decatur rd Saginaw tx 76179
( MAP IT !! )
We would like for people to wear yellow shirts... If you dont mind please do not send flowers, but rather donate $$$ to Cook Children's in Fort worth (www.cookchildrens.org) or to Make A Wish fundation ( http://www.wish.org/ )
For anything else (cards you want to send ) here is the address again,
Avery Family
111 aviator dr
Fort Worth,Tx 76179

Let me know if I forgot anything...

Oh and by the way, how amazing are you guys!!! more than 500 messages were left on here since yesterday ...(if you wonder if I have read them all , NO... Not yet...)

one more thing KEEP THE CANDLES BURNING FOR OUR LIL KING !!!

http://www.gratefulness.org/candles/candles.cfm?l=eng&gi=JuJu

391 candles from 14 countries....

here is the poem...

Fly high…

Fly high, lil man,
The sun and you are one.
You won’t ever be cold again,

I will always keep my eyes to the skies…
Today, the sunshine was a little warmer,
Tonight, the Milky Way a little brighter.

I feel your hand in mine and your face on my chest.
I feel you looking up at me,
Begging for a kiss.

“Just one more kiss, Mama…
One more dinosaur kiss,
Because I really like you “

Come closer baby, It is ok now,
You are done fighting ,
You are done hurting.

Give me one more smile,
One more silly face,
And one more hug…

You can go, now,you can go,
The boys will be fine,
Daddy and I will love on them for you…

My heart is shattered, baby,
But so much bigger,so full of love…
I will miss you forever…

So for now, Fly high, lil man…
With your brand new wings,
Fly high, all the way to Heaven…


Good night, sweet pea, sleep tight,
Your mama, the lil one…
(1-20-08)

Update on my camera: I went to church yesterday believing that it was going to be sitting there on the bleachers knowing it would be a miracle if it survived 3 basketball games. It wasn't there. I'm not sure what to do -- buy a new one or just hold out waiting for that miracle? It's just upsetting because there were so many pictures that I could have captured this week. . . if only I had my camera.

My AWESOME husband

I'm telling you, I think I'm the most blessed person in the whole world. . at least the most blessed wife!! ;) I think my husband has finally figured out that my love language is gifts and he has outdone himself!!

When my office was finished, I needed a desk. I was willing to search Goodwill or something, but we went on a date one night and Aaron asked me if I wanted to go look at desks. I thought that would be fine, but not expecting to buy one. We walked in Office Max and about 15 minutes later, walked out with a brand new desk!! It's black and is in an L shape, so I can work on my laptop, but still have room to work with papers!! I love it!!

Then, the UPS man comes the next week and drops off a box. I wasn't sure what it was, but it was addressed to Aaron. I went ahead and opened it up and there was a leopard print office chair!! It's for my new office, too!! We've been using it at home because my office is quite the disaster area at the moment, but I love it, too!! I'm thinking we need the zebra print one for home to go with my other new thing.

I've had my computer in the kitchen since March and Aaron gets quite annoyed at the clutter that can accumulate on that table. I see it at organized chaos because I know where everything is on that table, but he hates it. Before Christmas, I found a computer armoire at Walmart.com and showed it to Aaron. We couldn't get it at the time, but on New Year's day, he told me to order it. It came in and a piece was broken and so we just got the replacement last night. After life group Aaron finished putting it together and I love it, too!!

The coolest part is that he put everything together, too!! I know that he HATES reading directions and putting things together, but he did it for me!! I love everything and I am so thankful!!!

My plan was to do this post once everything came in and post pictures, so here's the post. . . I would take pictures, but see the post below.

UGGGGHHHH!! Please pray!!!

I take my digital camera to church on Sundays so that we can use it to take pictures for our security cards. It's Monday night and I can't find it!! Nicole said she put it by my purse. I was talking to Krissy when I left and I don't remember if I picked it up or not. It's not in my car and it's not in the house (that I've found yet). Please pray that it will turn up at my house or that someone turned it in at the school!!

UPDATE:
Called Nicole again -- not in the registration box.
Called Krissy -- she doesn't have it.
Stopped by the school -- nobody has turned it in.
She called the janitor -- hasn't seen it.
Tore up my house -- still haven't found it.

I forgot to mention that last night they had a basketball game in that gym. Please pray that whoever finds it will be honest and turn it in!!

My Find of the Week

Payton started school off this week by coming home with holes in the knees of his pants -- on Monday & Tuesday!! The kid only has 3 pair (maybe 4) anyway!! So, now he's down to 1 pair of pants that he can wear to school (besides his wind pants). So, I was going to make a run to Wal-Mart yesterday afternoon when I was remembered that Sears has their Kids Advantage club. This is where if your kids clothes that you buy there wear out before they outgrow them, you can bring them back for a new pair. This applies to socks, shoes, shirts, pants . . anything!

I paid $10.99 for Payton a pair of jeans and if he wears them to school today and comes home with a hole, I just take them back to Sears for a new pair!! Plus, the jeans I bought him have a double knee where the knee is thicker or tighter sewn or something.

I had to buy Payton a size 7 Regular and Evan is in a 6 Slim!! I did spend $16.99 on Evan's jeans, but they fit him so good. They are long enough and just a little big in the waist. But, as long as he's in that size, if he puts a hole in them (which will probably happen as much as that kid falls down) we go get a new pair!!

Just wanted to pass along my great find! This is especially good if you have boys!

Just a few pics

Here's Jaxon just over 1 month old:



Look at those cheeks:


Here's Jaxon (1 month) & Justus (4 months). These 2 are destined to be friends!

Few Things from This Week

Last week, I was so frustrated because Jaxon wouldn't sleep during the day. Actually, he would but for only 30 minutes or so. Then, he would get so tired that he couldn't sleep, so he just fussed all day long. At night, he did just fine getting up 2-3 times a night.

So, we started off the new year by him learning how to go to sleep on his own. It was a rough first day, but by the second day, he was going to sleep on his own with very little fussing. Today he went down without any!!

Also, last night I fed him at 8:00 and topped him off at 10. He slept until 2:30 am and didn't get up again until 6:00!! He woke up at 7 and Aaron went in and burped him and changed him and put him back down. He slept until 9 am!!! Then, when it was nap time he went down without fussing!! YAY!! I feel like I can get some things accomplished around here!!

On another note, I am official!! Check out my new office:

From the back of KLF Downtown. My office is on the left and Ira's is on the right.

From outside my office

From the door looking toward the stage

From the stage door looking back at the main door

I am so excited about my new "apartment" as BC calls it. Our offices are HUGE!! I don't think these pictures really show the size of it!! It's going to be perfect for when I have to go to the office and take the boys with me. They can be in there with me without bothering anyone else and it's big enough that we're not cramped in there! I am so excited about having my own space, too. Ira and I have been sharing an office for over a year now and I'm ready to have my own. That way my pens don't walk off and I know my stuff is secure. Plus, when I get a chance to go to the church and work, I don't have to worry about not having a desk/computer to work on or who is in the office. It's my own space and I am thrilled about it!! Final paint is going on tomorrow and then it's move in day!!

Angels Around Us

This Christmas has been a trip for the record books!! The trip to Aaron's parents' house was pretty uneventful. Jaxon did great on the drive and he only got up one time the first night!!

Saturday morning, we woke up and the boys and I were going to head to my parents' house, but my mom called and said not to come without Aaron because it was blowing snow so bad she couldn't see her back fence. So, we waited on Aaron to finish hunting and we piled in the car. When we left Wheeler, it was just starting to snow just a little bit.

But, as we neared Pampa (40 miles away), the blowing snow got worse. We had to slow way down in spots because we couldn't see very well and the roads were starting to get icy. The road comes to a Y and we weren't even sure how we were going to get out into the road.

We made it into the road and we met a pickup who was flashing his lights. Aaron slowed way down because he thought that meant there was a wreck up ahead. He was right. We were driving along and the snow was blowing, but all of a sudden, we were in a whiteout. We couldn't see a thing!! Then, I look over to the side and there is a semi-truck and a pickup in the ditch. Both of which are really bashed in. There were car parts in the road that we were having to dodge while trying not to run into the person in front of us. I look to the other side of the road and there is another semi-truck and a car or two.

We keep seeing cars in the ditches on each side. We're trying not to hit the person in front of us and we're praying that nobody is coming up behind us. We see a black SUV . . at least I think it was a SUV. The top was crumpled and bashed in. The windshield and windows were busted out. We see a man pulling a woman out of it by her legs through a hole that she would barely fit through. It was a miracle that she only had a scratch on her face about the size of a quarter. We felt bad for her and wanted to stop and let her get in because it was so cold outside, but we had to keep moving to keep from getting hit and we didn't have any room, either.

I cannot tell you how bad that situation was. We know that there had to be at least one person dead, but we thought there would be more. That was the first time I think I've ever felt 100% out of control and where we had to completely rely on God to get us through. The kids were watching a movie, so they didn't see any of it. I'm really thankful for that. It was scaring Aaron and I enough that I can't imagine what my kids would have thought. Or it might not have really registered to them. We probably missed being in the middle of this wreck by 10 minutes or so.

I'm not even doing the story justice as I type (I'm really tired), but I'm so thankful that we had angels on our side! Here's a link to the local story:

26 Car Pile Up

We made it through and made it to Aaron's grandpa's house were we were able to wait out the storm. It was quite an adventure. A trip that should have taken an hour and a half ended up taking 6 hours! But we arrived save and in one piece. . . for that I am thankful.

Update on THAT day

Aaron called the hospital this morning. He talked to a lady who said they had lost our paperwork. Then, they found it and they had put someone else's charges on my account. So, she found the paper work this morning and zeroed out my balance.

They called last week and told us we owed $275 for an extra night, but that was even zeroed out this morning!!

PRAISE GOD!!! I knew I was His favorite!!

One of THOSE days

Just wanted to blog about my day yesterday. . might get a little lengthy.

* Got up and fed Jaxon. Got him back to sleep.
* Checked e-mail and blogs.
* Took a shower.
* Jaxon awake again.
* Time for relational meeting at the church. . . I love those things! Yesterday's was especially fun just chatting about whatever came up.
* Had to leave early because I had to go to Wal-Mart and Jaxon had had enough meeting!! Jaxon falls alseep on the way.
* Go to Wal-Mart to exchange some diapers. Jaxon starts screaming and won't stop unless he's held. But, I can't hold/carry him and push the buggy at the same time.
* Decide to go to the bathroom and feed him.

Here's where things get to be one of THOSE days:
I go in the "family bathroom" because I knew I could keep a close eye on Evan and I wouldn't have to sit on the toilet to feed Jaxon. I change his diaper and start to feed him when my phone rings. Evan has the need to answer it and goes through his questions: Who is this? What do you want? etc.

He hands me the phone and tells me it's Sally. I was thinking it was the mom of the boy that we pick up from school, but no such luck. This Sally is from ARMC and she proceeds to tell me that I have a balance of $3800 and would I like to pay for it today on a credit card or with my debit card.

Now, as I'm sitting here talking to her, I'm feeding Jaxon. Evan is peeing in the toilet and wants to flush it. I convince him not to. Then, he has to wash his hands and dry them. . . talk about loud! Then, Sally makes some comment about how loud it is and how it's hard being a mom. If I could have reached through that phone and slapped her, I would have!

I explain to Sally that we already paid what we were supposed to pay. She tells me that what I paid was a deposit and not the full amount. I explain to her that the lady told me that if there were any other charges, someone would come to my room and collect the extra before I left the hospital. That was the only way to get the discount. Sally said that the $3800 is for blood work, how long I was in the delivery room, and how long I was in my room and because I paid the "deposit", they weren't concerned about coming to my room to collect the rest. I told her that I was in the delivery room for 1 hour and that this extra $3800 is not what we agreed to.

Then, Sally asks me if maybe my mom or my mother-in-law would help me pay this bill. My jaw hit the floor!! What in the world?!?! I explained to her that I don't have $4000 sitting in a savings account somewhere and even if I did, I don't owe them anything. I already paid what I was supposed to pay. I explained to her that we called and asked what the amount would be and we saved up that much money and I'm not paying for the other stuff.

By this time, I'm having to get on to Evan for turning on the hand dryer again and again. Jaxon is screaming and there is a lady outside the door waiting to use our bathroom. Sally gives me her number and tells me to get back with her. I was so frustrated I just started crying.

I finished feeding Jaxon . . . still hearing the lady outside our bathroom talk about how she was waiting on this bathroom. Jaxon won't go back in his carseat. He wants to be held. I hold Jaxon with one arm and push with the other. It works for a short amount of time.

* I fly through Wal-Mart picking up the things I need.
* Jaxon finally goes back to sleep.
* Go to pick up Alicia's (my college friend) mail, etc.
* Go to Aaron's office to drop off some of his flooring.
* Before we leave to go pick up the kids, Evan wakes Jaxon up and Jaxon wants to eat again. But, it's time to pick up the kids and get them home.
* Go pick up the kids -- all 4 of them. . . Jaxon screaming.
* I'm so totally frazzled by Sally and Jaxon screaming. Brandi helps me get the kids in the car. I laugh and tell her that I think I need something strong to drink and now I understand why people say that! ;)
* She gives me $20 and tells me to use it to buy dinner. . . I love you, Brandi!!!
* Jaxon continues to scream. Taylor put a book in front of him and he finally stopped for 10 minutes.
* The kids are mad because Jaxon is screaming. There's nothing I can do short of stopping to feed him, but that will take 30 minutes with impatient kids in the car.
* Krissy calls and we agree to meet before our usual spot so I can get home and feed Jaxon.
* Meet Krissy. . get home. . . feed Jaxon.
* Aaron gets home and plays football with Payton and Evan.
* Some guys come over for the Monday night meeting. (I don't mind it at all.) I hide out in my bedroom wrapping a few Christmas presents.
* The guys leave.
* Get the boys to bed.
* I go to bed for the 2nd day without really talking to Aaron. . wish we could figure that one out. It always seems like someone is needing something at all times.

Please pray for us. We are leaving on Friday to go to our parents' houses. We are going to be on the road a lot over Christmas and I'm not looking forward to it. I'm not looking forward to doing all of it with a newborn. They don't sleep good when they aren't home and we will really be on the road a lot . . . did I mention that Jaxon hates his carseat? And, I'm so tired of nursing and I want to stop, but then I feel like I'm causing even more of a financial burden. . . yes, I know this is all part of a new baby. Good news is Jaxon is sleeping much better. . . only getting up every 3 hours!!! YAY for that!!

Edited to add: Now would be a good time for those checks in the mail to show up. . those gifts & surprises, those debts paid off. . . you get the idea.

Yes, Pam as I'm sitting there on the phone with Sally mad as I could be at the situation, I was at least thinking this would make good blog material!!! ;)

2 weeks already

Jaxon had his 2-week check up today. He weighs a whopping 10 lbs. 2 oz and is 21 1/2 inches long!! Dr. S had a good chuckle when he saw 10 pounds already -- that's 2 pounds in 2 weeks!!! Jaxon started crying at one point and Dr. S said, 'Oh, are you hungry? I bet you are all the time!" I told him that yes, he does eat all the time. Dr. S said, "Are you nursing?" I said yes and he said, "I'm sorry."

Everyone wants to know how he's sleeping. . . well, we did good for 2 nights in a row!! Then last night he was up every 2 hours again. I guess that's part of it.

I keep trying to remember to make a slide show to post on here of all the pictures we've taken over the last two weeks (ok, maybe not all of them), but I keep forgetting. . . guess that's what happens when you're brain is low on sleep!! ;)

Just Stuff

I am refreshed!! Jaxon slept so much better last night without me giving him a bottle of formula!! I fed him at 9 and put him down. I went to bed at 9:45 (didn't even finish watching Ace of Cakes!!). Aaron did a movie night at BC's house and he got home around 11. I asked him to go check on Jaxon because it had been 2 hours. Jaxon was still snoozing!!

He woke up at midnight, 3 am, and 7 am!!! I woke up this morning thrilled!! Aaron asked me if that was good. That's really good considering he's been waking up every hour on the hour or every 2 hours since we've been home from the hospital!!! I feel like a new creation this morning!! ;)

Also, I read an update on my "friend" Julian this morning. He woke up without pain this morning and asked for spaghetti at 2 am!! Praise God!! Between 11 and 12 last night, I just prayed for him that God would turn this around. I'm so thankful that he woke up without pain!!

Update on my "friend" Julian

A little while ago, I posted about a boy that has meduloblastoma -- a cancerous brain tumor. Last week, his family got to go to Disney World thanks to Make A Wish. On the way there, Julian started having seizures and they had to rush him from the airport to the ER. They gave him some medicine and the rest of the trip went as planned. When they got back to Texas, the doctors did another MRI on him and found that his cancer has spread throughout his brain and spinal cord. The doctors have given him weeks to live.

Each day his mom, Mimi, updates his website and things are going downhill very quickly.
Today I was reading the update and just thought, "God, I want you to turn this around just as quickly as it's going down." That is my prayer for him today.

This is the same cancer my brother had that God healed him of and I know that God can do it again -- no matter what stage it is in. Please say a prayer for his mom today. She's trying to be strong and still process all that is going on with little Julian. He's only 4 years old.

Thank you!!!

I knew that our church family was a blessing, but in the last week, I've realized really how much of a family that we are. I just wanted to say a huge thank you to everyone!! You have made this transition in our lives so much easier!! From phone calls to see how we're doing to picking stuff up at Wal-Mart for us, I cannot even begin to tell you how much you all are appreciated.

I'm dealing with a situation with my own parents and my heart is broken. But, the way I've been treated by my church family has made all the difference in the world. So, thank you!! Thank you for just being you. Thank you for the phone calls. Thank you for the meals (they are delicious by the way). Thank you for offering to watch Evan. Thank you for stopping by just to check in. Thank you for saying "Call me if you need something" and really meaning it. Thank you for asking how I'm doing and really wanting to know. I know there are more things that I'm just not thinking of -- thank you for those things, too!!

We are doing really good. I have come off of the "baby high", but I haven't hit a "baby low".

Jaxon is waking up every 2 hours at night, but sleeping for 3 during the day . . . not sure how to change that, but if I time it right, it isn't so bad. Like last night, I fed him at 9, he got up at 11 and I had just gone to bed. He then got up at 2, 4, & 6. Not so bad, really. I hadn't slept in my own bed in weeks because I couldn't get comfortable before, but I've been back in my own bed the last 2 nights and it's made all the difference in the world. Even though I'm getting up every 2 hours, I feel rested.

Jaxon has a diaper rash already that has peeled a layer of skin off of his bottom. Please pray for that! He really is a champ when it comes to changing his diapers. Just makes me hurt to look at it. Payton used to get those kind of diaper rashes all the time. I'm just believing that this will be Jaxon's first and last one that is this bad.

Evan got home yesterday and we are so excited to have him back!! I was worried that Jaxon would wake Evan up in the middle of the night because Evan is a lighter sleeper than Payton, but Evan didn't move last night. I guess it could have been because he was totally exhausted from Perty's house. They hit a deer on the way to Abilene and it really messed up Roy's (Aaron's dad) new truck -- busted the windshield, the grill, the headlight, etc. I am so thankful that they were all ok.

Evan had a ton of stories to tell. One of the funniest ones is about Evan climbing a tree. Aaron's parents have this little tree in their front yard. Evan climbed up it and he couldn't figure out how to get down. He asked Aaron's mom to get him down and she said she couldn't and asked him how he was going to get down. He said, "Perty! Go call the fire truck! They can come and get me down!" This kid is too funny!!

I took Jaxon to Payton's school yesterday for everyone to see him. I cannot tell you how much I love his school. Payton's kindergarten teacher had her whole church praying for me last week that I wouldn't have to be induced. She said everyone was very excited on Sunday morning when she was able to give the testimony that I had him on my own. I love that woman! The principal and her assistant came and talked to me for a while telling me how cute Jaxon was and they asked me if I needed anything. Payton's teacher told me that Payton is doing really good and he's really proud of Jaxon. That made me feel good.

Last night Cody & Ashley came over for a little while and Cody asked me how this pregnancy compared to my other ones. I told him that it was harder in the end because I was so uncomfortable, but the labor was easier and the adjustment has been so much easier (so far).

OK, so I've been up since 6, it's 8:45 and I feel like it's already noon!! I think I'm going to go do some creating this morning. Yes, I think that's a plan.

Pretty Much Sums It Up

Payton came in earlier and he said, "Hey mom. Do you know what is better than Xbox?" (Remember his thankful list?) I said, "What?" He said, "Baby Jaxon." Yes, I think that about sums it up.

We're Home

I cannot tell you how good it feels to be in my own house with my own stuff and my own bed and our new son!!

I am convinced that Jaxon loves his mom and wanted things to go the way I wanted them to!! I cannot tell you how perfect my labor was with him.

I dropped Payton off at Krissy's house and headed home. I wanted to get my kitchen swept and mopped and I wanted to finish getting my Christmas tree put together before going in to be induced. I got home and started sweeping. My contractions started and were 5 minutes apart!!

Aaron was planning on going over to Bryan's to play Halo, but I asked him to stay home or let them come over here to play because I wasn't going to make it to the morning. About 9 pm, I felt this pop in my stomach. I wasn't sure what that was, but thought it could have been my water. I called Brandi at some point in there to give her the good news.

I got everything done that I needed to do and went and laid down on my bed. I decided to go on in because at least they could give me some sleeping pills or something to take the edge off of the contractions. Right as we walked out the door of our house, I had a really bad contraction and started feeling pressure. It was a little scary.

We made it to the hospital in 13 minutes -- walked in about 11:45 or so! We walked in the ER and I had another contraction. This lady brought a wheelchair behind me and told me to sit down when I thought I could. Then, this guy nurse came out and bumped my legs with the wheelchair and told me to sit down now because we had to go. I thought he was awfully rude!!

This guy takes me FLYING down the hallways!! I had my eyes closed, but I could hear Aaron running -- not kidding, RUNNING -- behind us. He gets me up to L&D and they open the door and he pushes me through the doors and just lets me go. The nurses kind of had to run after me. That was quite funny at the time!! I got the last room available. They said they were going to have to call me and cancel my induction for the next morning anyway, so I was glad it happened on my own.

There were about 6 nurses in the room and one tries to check me and she can't feel Jaxon's head. She asked me if he has been head down. When I would have a contraction, you could see him laying sideways in my stomach. The weird thing is that a few months ago, I had this weird thought that I would have to have a c-section. I thought it was weird and it came from nowhere. I decided to believe against that, but also thought it could have been a "warning". Anyway, several of them checked me and they were whispering. I'm not sure at what point they finally felt his head, but I was relieved!

There was a lady who came in after me, but she was already pushing and they were convinced that she would deliver before me, so all the nurses ran over to her and we were both having to wait on Dr. Sinclair. The really neat thing was that I would have a really bad contraction and then have a period of rest for what seemed like a long time. Aaron said the rest wasn't all that long if any.

Speaking of Aaron, he was amazing!! He knew when to encourage me and when to stay quiet. He was so supportive in everything -- from the birth to family things. He kept telling me how proud he was of me. At one point, I was really embarrassed at how loud I was being during contractions. During my "rest" I actually said, "I think it's time I get myself together." The nurses thought that was funny. I don't know how many times he offered me his hand, but I grabbed the bed rail instead afraid that I might break his hand if I did hold it. I was just so thankful for him!!

Dr. S arrived and delivered the other lady. Then, he came in the room and told me to start pushing when I was ready. I don't think he was quite ready for how fast it all happened!! One push and Jaxon came flying out. Dr. S almost dropped him and things got a little chaotic at that point. He cut the cord and the clamp on my side of the cord came off, which wasn't good. The nurses weren't quite ready or they were shocked or something because everyone seemed to be moving in slow motion. I got the shakes really bad afterwards, which wasn't fun, but, in the end, all is well and Jaxon made his entrance on his own terms!! ;)

Here are his stats:

Jaxon Carter

born at 12:41 am
8 lbs. 5.5 oz
20 1/4" long
14 3/4" head
14 1/2" chest

The nurses were all laughing about how big his head is and how long his toes are. Another great thing about his birth is that we were able to just be the 3 of us for a while before we called anyone or sent out text messages. Aaron's family was in town and I didn't want anyone at the hospital waiting on Jaxon or calling to get the updates while I'm being induced. I cannot even tell you how perfect everything was for what I wanted. I just felt like I was Jaxon's favorite and God's favorite for the way He set everything up.

Last night was a little rough. We were up all night. For some reason, he doesn't seem to enjoy his 100% Egyptian Cotton 800 TC sheets in his bed!! So, we slept in the recliner together for 20 minute intervals last night.

After he was born, he slept for a long time, then they circumcised him that morning, which made him even more sleepy, so he didn't eat much at all for the first day. They told me before I left the hospital that he would probably make up for it and boy, did he!! All he wanted to do last night was eat!! In the hospital, his blood sugar level dropped, so they had to give him formula and they sent some of it home with us, so luckily I had a bottle I was able to give him on occasion to give me a break. Today is much better. I took a nap this morning while Aaron watched him.

Here's another weird detail about his birth. Most of you know I have this weird thing with numbers. I don't like odd numbers, however all of our birthdays are on odd months, odd days, and odd years. Jaxon made it on an odd month, odd day, odd year by 41 minutes!! See, I'm convinced he loves his mom!! ;)

The VERDICT

I am being induced tomorrow morning (Thursday). I have to be there at 5:30 am, but last time Dr. A didn't show up until 9. So, that's the verdict for the day!!

Favor & Grace

No Jaxon yet. . . I'm going to the dr. this morning. Please pray that I will have favor with him and he will send me right over. I've had contractions this morning and I'm hoping that is enough for him to just say let's do it today. If not, please pray that they aren't booked up tomorrow & Friday!! ;)

Also pray that I will have grace for family. I really want him to do it today because of the whirlwind it will make with family. I won't have time to think about it all. My family won't be in town to be calling us every 30 minutes for a progress report, although Aaron's family is still in town waiting for today's "verdict". When my parents come in, I don't have anywhere for them to stay. My house is feeling really cramped and closing in on me the last few days, too. Anyway, I'm really needing grace for family right now. I just want to have Jaxon and call everyone in a few weeks and let them come down. Isn't going to happen that way. I'm just not used to family being around this much and especially with all the focus on me.

Anyway, guess I better go get ready!! Crazy to think that I could be holding my little one this evening!!!

Update

So here's what I've decided. Yesterday I was sitting on the couch just doing nothing except I guess feeling a little sorry for myself when it hit me. . . my attitude is up to me. I can either be miserable these last few days or I can be in a good mood. I've decided to just be in a good mood until. . . until whatever happens. It's a mindset even when my flesh wants to pout and mope around. But, I've changed my attitude -- I'm in a good mood and I'm waiting patiently on the arrival of Jaxon!! ;)

Pregnancy Rambles

Yes, I'm still here. . . still pregnant. . . still wondering when in the heck this big event is going to take place!! I feel like I've done everything in my power to get Jaxon here, but I'm convinced that he's just comfy!! This morning in the shower I was praying and I just had to ask God to make sure that I wouldn't be pregnant forever. How is it that this whole pregnancy has FLOWN by, but the last week seems like an eternity!!

Yes, I know Jaxon will come when he's supposed to, but doesn't he understand convenience? Aaron's mom, sister, and brother are here until Tuesday. His mom told me she's hanging around waiting on a baby. Gosh how nice it would be if Jaxon came before Tuesday!! We wouldn't have to worry about where the boys are going to go, how long they'll be there, etc.

Yesterday I went shopping with Aaron's mom. I was on my feet and walking for 12 hours straight!! My feet were killing me. My stomach muscles hurt from carrying this giant out in front. I just knew something would happen. Nothing.

I have said all along that I didn't want Jaxon to come before Black Friday because I wanted to go shopping. Then, yesterday I thought about Brandi's comment to Francesca about how it's just like a boy to do whatever it takes to get his mom flowers. I thought -- that's right. It's just like a boy to let his mom go shopping and THEN make his great debut. So, yes I went shopping and he did wait.

Maybe he's waiting on me to put up my Christmas decorations!! Yeah! Maybe that's it! Those are going up today. The boys are sorting the tree parts into different piles as I type.

Oh well. . . guess he'll just come when he comes. I go from one extreme of "I'm calling Dr. A right now and telling him let's get this show on the road" to the other of "Oh, what's a few more days really?"

One thing I do know is that I will definitely have him by this time next week . . . guess that should give me some kind of comfort. . . just a few more days.

One More Week (or less)

I'm hoping for the "or less" option!!!

I went to the dr. this morning. I'm still dilated to a 1 . . maybe 1 1/2 (like it makes a difference). He said the baby is very low (didn't have to tell me that). When he measured him, Dr. A's eyes about popped out of his head. He just said he's "good size". He's giving me another week and then I'm going to have to induce because Jaxon is getting too big. I'm so ready to have Jaxon, but I am very thankful that this time Dr. A isn't pushing me to induce.

Linda (the nurse) wasn't there today and there was another older nurse. She asked me if I was going to go natural or be induced. I told her I'm trying to go natural, but I'm almost considering inducing. She kind of chuckled and said, "Well, what's one or two more weeks?" I'm telling you, that was the last thing she needed to say to me today!!! ;) One or two more days seems like an eternity right now not to mention one or two more weeks!!

Today I was thinking about the things I won't miss about being pregnant. Here's my list so far:

* Maternity pants -- I can't keep mine up lately!
* Sleepless nights -- at least my sleepless nights will be from a baby and not just because I can't sleep.
* Painful hips -- need I say more?
* These crazy emotions -- I've had my feelings hurt more in the last week than in the last 5 years -- all over silly things, of course.
* Swollen fingers and feet -- maybe my feet will shrink back to my normal size, too.

Having listed those few things, would I be pregnant again? Absolutely.

Will I ever be pregnant again? The jury is still out on that one.

Total Surprise!

Yesterday morning, I went to church prepared to stay in children's church, but preferring to be in the service. I have been a little "on edge" lately and children's church is the last place for me to be when I'm like that! ;)

But, when I got to church, Krissy kept trying to kick me out of children's church. It didn't hurt my feelings, but she was being a little pushy about how I needed to get out of there and go sit down and do nothing for a change. But, I had my yellow team to talk to and Krissy was quick to say that she would handle it for the day. At our team pre-service meeting, Krissy told Eric & Nicole to just flow with it. . . she didn't say what "it" was. . . just flow. OK . . . not exactly how I do things, but I trust her.

So, I go to service, they dismiss the kids, I ask one last time to make sure Krissy is going to be ok and she assures me that if they need me, they will come and get me.

I'm sitting in the service when an usher comes up and tells me that I am needed in children's church. I knew whatever it was, it had to be bad. I'm walking up the aisle wondering what in the world could be going on. I get to the door of the gym and it's dead silent on the other side of it! I was a little scared and then I thought "What if the Holy Spirit came and knocked them all out and Krissy just wanted me to see it?" I just prayed real quick and asked God to get me through whatever was on the other side of that door!

I opened the door and all the kids yell SURPRISE!!! They all came running at me with cards in their hands that they had made for me. They threw me a surprise baby shower!! I was overwhelmed and shocked and truly blessed!! They had the presents all lined up and ready to go and they had a special seat for me to sit in. The kids had cookies and couldn't wait for me to open their gifts!! I had fun listening to them say "Diapers & wipes! Again?" So, here's Jaxon's loot from the day:

It totals:
398 diapers
1,071 wipes
1 bottle of lotion
6 washcloths (that have crowns and castles on them)
4 bibs
4 outfits
22 socks (11 pairs)
1 diaper rash cream
$5

After I opened my gifts, the kids spoke blessings over me and Jaxon. It was the sweetest time. They told me how much they loved me and how much fun Jaxon was going to be. I think there are two that stand out the most -- one of the boys said, "All I have to say is Jaxon, rock on!" and then one of the girls told me that Jaxon was going to follow in my footsteps and the blessing that I've been to them (my current kids), that Jaxon would be that same blessing to their kids. WOW! That one caught me off guard, but it was so powerful!!

That's not to mention all of the cards they gave me!! I am truly blessed!! Our kids are such givers and they just love to give -- even if it's a piece of paper with their drawing on it.

There is one picture that I want to share that kind of stood out to me. I was opening presents and it was inside one of the bags. It was a picture of like a storm on one side and this blue sky on the other. There was this cloud between the two with lightening coming out of it. I remember pulling it out of the bag and thinking "Well, isn't that interesting?" But, tonight as I was looking through everything, I saw it in a different way.

I had a bad case of postpartum depression after Evan. I can't describe it other than it was one of the hardest times of my life. In the last week or so, I've felt "the funk" trying to come over me. Thankfully, I recognize it and realize that I have authority over it this time! But, when I saw that picture tonight, it was like God was saying that I've been in the storm before, but this time He is going to bring light. This time will be different. How powerful of a picture to me at the current point in my pregnancy. I'm not sure if the child who drew it knows it was from God, but I'm going to try to track down who it was and make sure they know that God used them to speak to me. How awesome is that?!?!

So, it's 1 am and I'm heading to bed a blessed children's pastor and a blessed woman -- blessed above and beyond all I could ever hope, ask, or think!!

That's My Boy!!

Yesterday Payton brought home one of his papers and on it he had to list 7 things he was thankful for. Here are his 7 things (in his order):

1. Xbox
2. NFL
3. NBA
4. Brothers
5. Dad
6. Mom
7. Romo (Tony Romo)

Is that a boy's list or what? And, what's up with me being #6?!?! He said he couldn't think of the last thing and his friend suggested Romo. What about clothes, food, and shelter? Aren't those the "given answer" when you say what you're thankful for?!?! Oh well. . . I did think it was cute!

Word for Someone

A friend posted this on her blog. It was a word that Vaughn Clark (not sure who that is) gave at her church one night in October. I have read it over and over and I feel like it is for someone who reads my blog, too. I think I know who you are, but I thought others might benefit from it, too.

So, here's the word: "You need to breath fresh air in the Spirit. Take a deep breathe. Your one of those ladies that when you came in, you came in. And it was like here I am, your what I've got and I'm going with you Jesus. Don't let the enemy disappoint you and take you down. Don't let him put you off to the side. You have got to learn to walk in peace with people and do what you do because God has told you to do it. Be grateful for encouragement you have from other people, but don't let hindrances from other people stop you. You just be on about it. You have to be constant and immovable in the work of the Kingdom. When you've got help and encouragement from others, thank God for it, but when you have blockages from other people don't let it wear you out. You just go on about your Father's business."

THE ROOM IS FINISHED!!

The masterpiece is finished -- completely finished!! Things put away, clothes are hung, diapers are stacked. . . just waiting on a baby! ;)

Here's the link to the pictures:

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=fyhgbqj.9a96x9j3&x=0&h=1&y=760452


If you looked at them before, not much has changed. . bedding is in, mobile is attached, and things are put away -- for the most part. I had just gone shopping that day and that's why there's stuff on the changing table.

So, now it's the waiting game. Evan asks me every day when I'm going to go pick up our baby. Boy, I wish it was that easy!! ;)

The Golden Compass

I have received an e-mail about this movie several times over and I thought I would post on here. I haven't read the books and I haven't seen the movie, but from what I read, I think we should all be careful when considering taking our kids to see this movie. It comes out on December 7th and has been made to look like the Narnia series, but it is far from it.

I am going to do more research on the subject, but I plan on having something to hand parents about the movie on Sunday. I don't think we should be Christians who get a rise out of movies and get all crazy about boycotting them. I just think we need to be informed about movies -- especially ones that are directed at our kids.

So, here's a link that a children's church curriculum writer put together:
http://truthquest.net/newsletter/newsletter-goldencompass07.html

At the bottom of the article, there are different research places to see for yourself. This week I'm planning on researching this out.

Update & Fancy Bedding!!

Less than 3 weeks. . . . less than 3 weeks. . . . LESS THAN THREE WEEKS!!!!!!!

I can't believe it's less than 3 weeks!! I had a dr. appointment yesterday. I gained 3 pounds in 2 week -- yuck! He checked me and said I'm 1 cm dilated. That kind of freaked me out because I never dilated before going into labor with my other ones. I wasn't expecting that at all. But, it is nice that the contractions that I am having are doing some good! He also said he is really low and when it does happen, it should be quick. That was good news! Do you think I can hold him to that?! WOW! Less than 3 weeks!!

On another note, I ordered my crib bedding off of Ebay. It said it was 800 thread count Egyptian Cotton. I thought "OK, whatever". I thought the shipping was a little high ($45), but some people make their money on the shipping, so I didn't really think much about it. I just wanted plain navy bedding.

Anyway, the place sent me a tracking number and the shipping place was one I had never heard of, but it said in cooperation with UPS. So, I entered the tracking number to see where my package was and it said "Cairo Egypt"!! This bedding is REAL EGYPTIAN COTTON -- STRAIGHT FROM EGYPT!! I thought it would be weeks before I actually saw it, but the UPS man showed up on my doorstep today with it!! It was tightly bundled with this string and put in this envelope. It must have cost more to ship it in a box. Anyway, I cut away the string and this 5-piece bedding is all rolled up like a sleeping bag and VERY TIGHT!! I love it and it is very soft. Just can't believe my baby will be sleeping on 800 TC sheets!! I don't even have any of those!! ;)

My Favorite 4 Year Old

Photo Caption: Mom, take a picture of me working!

Ahhh. . . at this time 4 years ago, I was sitting in the hospital with our new bundle of joy. Who knew how much fun this kid would be?!?! Who knew how silly he would be? Who knew that he would be the king of goodbyes? Who knew this kid would be obsessed with Cars? Who knew he would love football so much? Who knew he would know names and numbers of NFL players? Who knew he would be such a people person? Who knew he would be so laid back and relaxed? Who knew how much he loves to have his picture taken or take random pictures himself? Who knew how much I would love this kid? Who knew how much I would love his personality? Who knew how much I would want to be more like him?

So, today as I celebrate my baby turning 4 years old, I am so thankful that he's my kid! I'm so thankful that I get to watch him grow up. I'm so thankful that he is my favorite 4 year old!!

Creativity

"You're so creative!" I've heard that several times over the last few weeks and I have to say that is my favorite compliment. . . not necessarily how good I look or how good my hair looks, etc, but that I'm creative. I love to be creative!

I have realized over the last month or so that if I can be creative for just one hour a day, it makes my day so much better! Sometimes I sit down and plan out some cards. Sometimes I have project going in my scrapbook closet and I leave it out where I can stop by and work on it for a few minutes at a time. Sometimes I find a creative tv show and sit for an hour or so soaking it up.

My favorite creative show lately has been "Ace of Cakes". These guys are AMAZING!! They make different cakes, but they aren't your everyday kind of cakes! The other night, they made a gumball machine cake and one lady was working on a Scrabble cake. I cannot even begin to describe how much these cakes looked like the real thing!! One night they made a cake for the 80th birthday of a guy who started a local hamburger joint a long time ago. So, they made him a cake that had a hamburger (no veggies because that's how he served them) and onion rings. They made this red basket thing with the paper underneath the hamburger. Again, I cannot tell you how real it looked when they were finished!!

The creative part isn't always how the cake is going to look, but how to make it look like whatever it is. The other night, one lady was working on a slot machine. She wasn't getting the look she was going for, so she had to go back to the "drawing board" and figure out how to make it bigger so that it looked more realistic -- problem solving -- another one of my sometimes favorite things to do.

Anyway, I went to a children's conference one time and they talked about creativity and how most people don't look at themselves as creative. But, the Bible says that God created us in HIS IMAGE and let me tell you, my God is CREATIVE! Just look around you. . . He made everything and no two things are alike!! How creative is that?!?

OK, so I'm off to be creative for an hour before my day really starts (aka when Evan gets up). I'm going to challenge you to do something creative today. . . get those creative juices flowing!! ;)

My Weekend

I can honestly say that I am really nesting!! Friday I was determined to get Jaxon's room pulled together before my shower. I started cleaning out that room/closet and by the end of the day, I had a mess from the back of the house to the front!! It was everywhere!! I did throw away 2 bags of trash and started on a third (sorry Becky. I told you I threw away 3). THREE BAGS OF TRASH IN MY HOUSE -- JUST TAKING UP SPACE!! WOW! That felt good!!

I cleaned up my scrapbook mess that was happening in my living room due to baby shower hostess gifts. I had my laundry piled HIGH on the couch. My house was a wreck!!

But, today it is all pulled together -- well, for the most part. My laundry is put away. My scrapbook stuff is put away for now. I cleaned out and reorganized the hall closet. Jaxon's room is mostly clean and my dishes are all done. Yes, I'm sure that I'm nesting!!

Monday, my plan is to attack my scrapbook closet. I know there are things in there I will never use and it's time for me to downsize a little bit!!

Aaron's at the World Series right now as I'm typing this. I'm watching on tv and I have to say that I'm almost a little jealous!! His brother caught a home run ball during batting practice and they were first in line to get into the stadium!! Aaron sent me a picture of him from his seat -- definitely nosebleed seats, but I am sure it is fun anyway!! Right now, they say it is 39 degrees in Denver . . maybe I'm glad I'm not there! ;)

My shower today was great!! I love a good theme party and it was all Dallas Cowboys!! Amy had a great idea to make a flower vase out of a football. They cut off one end and put some rocks in the bottom to help it stand up and they put flowers coming out of the top. It's too cute!! The whole thing was great. There weren't many people there, but I thought it was so much fun! We were able to sit around and talk about mommy inventions. Lots of things left to get for Jaxon, but that will be fun, too!!

Aaron's mom and sister took me to Sharky's tonight for dinner. It's been a few weeks since I've been in there and it was so good!! Aaron's mom wasn't all that impressed -- like mother, like son! We got it to go because my boys were with Joel and I was afraid they would come home, but her food got cold on the way home and it wasn't as good. I think she should give it another try at least!! ;) I sure enjoyed mine!!

I think that's all for my update of the weekend so far. Aaron's mom and sister are coming over after church tomorrow and the boys are going to paint some little piggy banks that Aaron's sister bought for them. Please pray for my boys! They are really missing their dad -- and I mean REALLY REALLY missing him!!

Dr. Appointment

Yesterday I went to the dr. for another ultrasound to see how big Jaxon is getting. I gained 6 pounds -- UGH! Anyway, Dr. A measured his head and the due date came up as October 27th!!! I thought it was a miscalculation, but Dr. A said, "Well, his head is larger than average." Great.

He measured his stomach and told me that that measurement would give us a good idea of how much he weighed right now. That measurement said he weighs 6 pounds 13 ounces -- RIGHT NOW!! I have 5 weeks left!! Dr. A said that since I'm tall, I'm more likely to have bigger babies. He is guessing that Jaxon will be between 8 1/2 pounds to 9 pounds!!

His leg measurements had due dates from November 2nd to November 17th. His heart was beating normal and it's definitely a boy -- no question about that!!

Now, I know women do it all the time. I know that Pam has done it every time and at home at that!! I don't know why, but the thought that Jaxon already weighs 6 lb 13 oz just flipped me out yesterday!! Dr. A said the ultrasound could be up to a pound off either way -- bigger or smaller and that Jaxon should gain between half a pound to a pound each week from here until the end. Payton was 8 lb 3 oz and Evan was 7 lb 11 oz induced 10 days early.

He was all bunched up, so we didn't get any pictures. He is head down and he has dropped, although he still feels like he's in my ribs. I'm not dilated at all, which was kind of nice to hear, but I sure wish these contractions I'm having were doing some good!!

Please Pray for Julian

This is a little boy I've "met" over the internet. He has the same cancer that my brother had. They thought it was in remission, but on Monday they found out that his cancer has returned. Of course there are several options for his parents. They meet with his head doctor on Thursday morning to discuss treatments. They are really leaning on God and believing, but I wanted to share this slide show to show this beautiful boy. Gosh! These pictures bring back memories of my own brother. WARNING: May cause tears to flow -- at least it did for me.






Makes the pinched nerve in my leg seem like nothing at all.

Yes, Jesus Loves Evan

Yesterday we went to look for some coats for the boys. They seemed to have a million and one coats last year, but they seem to have disappeared. Anyway, we found a Dallas Cowboys fleece pullover thing for Payton, but I didn't really want to spend $20 on that (although I know that's not a lot -- well, actually it is for a pullover).

Anyway, Evan kept telling me that he wanted a Chiefs coat. I kept wondering how we were going to find that in Texas without spending an arm and a leg for a coat he'll wear one year.

Anyway, last night Aaron told me to go to Goodwill this morning and see what I could find. We pulled in the parking lot and Evan asked why we were there. I told him we were looking for a coat and he said, "But remember, I want a CHIEFS coat."

We went in and were looking through the rack. I found a black and blue coat that was in good shape, but he wasn't having it. He wanted the CHIEFS. I went to the other side of the rack and look what I found:


He was so excited!! And it was only $3.24!! Yes, the sleeves are almost too short, but I just couldn't pass it up! He is SO proud of that thing!! I told him I had to wash it and he didn't want to take it off! I just kept laughing thinking that God cared whether Evan had that CHIEFS coat or not!!

The story behind the wall

I met this lady online on a scrapbooking board named Amanda. I was asking if anyone had some textured football paper. She did and through various e-mails, she asked me what I was going to do with it. I told her about my plans for Jaxon's room and the football field. She e-mailed back and said she had done a football field on her son's wall in the University of Alabama. I asked for help and she did that!! Her field looks AMAZING!!!

Anyway, we "talked" several times over e-mails about the room and how it was coming along. This week, she posted this post on the scrapbooking bulletin board:

First the not so good part: Friday I was told I probably had a brain tumor!

I was very scared. I am only 26 and have two children 3 and 1 year. This can't be happening to me.

So, today I went in for more testing.

We didn't tell but just my mom, my two BFFs, and my neighbor. Sunday in night church we had a missionary speak on how as Christians we say we believe in miracles but do we act like it? Do we believe that if we pray for someone they can be healed? At this point I was called out of service because Drew was crying in nursery. So when I came back in after the service was over Scott and my mom met me at the door to tell me I was healed.

Disclaimer: as a Christian I do believe in healing but I have always been weary of those preachers you see on t.v. that "heal" people on the spot. Now this guy dosen't speak to people before the service because he doesn't want to be accused of being a hoax. Someone who can talk to you, read your body language and then "heal" you. Please keep this in mind.

Back to the novel: So I thought they meant, yeah we got to believe I'm healed. Yadda, yadda, ya. But no. During the sermon he stopped and looked around the room. Then said there is a young mother here who has a brain tumor. She hasn't told many people but I am asking all of you to stop this service and pray with me that she will be healed. God has great and mighty things for her and she can't do them if she has this tumor. Although it is begining it still needs to be gone! So everyone, including my pastor whom we haven't told yet, is looking around trying to figure out who it is. They pray and go back to the sermon. At the end, he would call people out and say like sir in the yellow shirt, you have leukemia and you don't believe you will ever be healed from it. God just wants you to believe. Things like that. So I was the only one he didn't specifically call out, because I wasn't in there. After the sermon my mom told my pastor what was going on so they went and got me. As soon as I walked up to him he knew I was the one. He told me the same stuff he told everyone else and then a bunch of people gathered around and prayed for me.

Today, the doctor couldn't find the same stuff the first doctor did. They are redoing new bloodwork and I get another MRI Wed. But I know I was healed last night.

Please, do not think I am hookie or weird or anything. I don't go to a church where we play with snakes or anything. I go to a normal church where a wonderful Man of God came and REALLY did heal me through the grace of an everloving God.

I hope this doesn't offend anyone, but I wanted to share my news. I've heard of people saying they were healed but I've never actually "known" it to happen to someone I personally know or love. By the grace of God I will watch my children grow up. Thank you for reading this! I love you girls just like my own IRL BF (in real life best friends) and just wanted to share!

I am so excited for her. (The stuff in the parenthasis (sp?) is translation for the lingo we use on the board.) On this board, you do kind of develop relationships with women that you don't really know. There are a few on there that I talk to almost daily, but you never really know what they believe or much of anything else. Plus, it's a PUBLIC forum. She could have seriously taken some flack just for posting that!! But, the ladies on there really encouraged her -- testimonies about how they had been healed of something or how they knew of someone who had been healed. It was nice to see all these ladies who you "know" but you really "don't know" confess their beliefs and it just makes the board more neat, in my opinion. I was able to share with her the testimony of my brother and how God healed him from a brain tumor, too. The thread had been locked this morning because someone posted a comment about how could someone NOT believe in healing and another lady got offended, so the moderators locked the thread (nobody else can post on it).

The cool thing is that I can't help but think about her story every time I look at that football field. I think it has greater meaning for me than just another testimony. I'm not sure if healing will be "Jaxon's thing" or what it exactly means, but I cannot tell you how excited I am for this woman.

The coolest thing is that the same day or the next day, another lady posted this testimony:

Praise GOD!

Sorry if you don't believe, but my son is living proof of miracles and God's healing powers! We just got home from our 10 hour adventure to Childrens Hospital in Seattle to have Garretts follow up CT Scan and Neurosurgery appt.

PRAISE GOD! Our baby is healed!! No kidding, I was speechless when the neurologist said "I don't know how else to tell you this, but you don't need to come back here! Garrett's fluid levels are normal and his head is growing at a normal rate." I cried I was so happy...and of course secretly SHOUTING inside "Thank you LORD for your healing and answered prayers!!!"

This lady's son had excessive fluid on his brain and even had to wear one of those helmet things to keep his head from swelling. Again, ladies posted with encouragement and testimonies. I just love it!! Of course, one lady had to post, "I don't pray, but you will be in my thoughts today." Everyone else was just amazing with testimonies and excitement for this miracle.

Anyway, I just had to share how God is using a public scrapbooking forum to shine!!

The Curtains & My Toes!!

How's that for a title?!?!

Krissy came over today and we got the curtains hung up!! I LOVE THEM!! They really make the room!! So, here's a picture of those:


Then, in the last secret sister round, Candy gave me a gift certificate to Creative Nails for a pedicure. I've put it off and put it off because I'm really not fond of people touching my feet. But, I had until Saturday to get it done and decided to go today. Here's the picture:


Yes, they're blue. Guess I might have gone a little overboard on this whole Dallas Cowboys thing!! ;) Now, the big question is -- So, what did you think? I liked it, I guess. Probably not something I'll keep doing, but it would be nice every once in a while, I guess. I did like having all the dead skin scraped off of my feet. They look SOOOOOO much better!!! The girl that did mine was really sweet although she didn't say a whole lot. Her husband was doing the lady next to me and told me they were expecting their first child. It was funny to listen to all of them talk. I liked paying attention to all their toenails. I wonder if it's mandatory that they all wear sandals and show off their toes?

Anyway, it was a good day. I have a story I'll share later about the lady who helped me with the football wall. . . gotta run for today!

I just can't wait!!!

I just can't wait to show you guys the pictures!!! I'm so excited about this room and even though it's not quite finished, I just have to share!!

So, instead of trying to upload all of them to here, click on this link and you can see the slideshow from start to almost finished!

http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=fyhgbqj.cb6yyud3&x=0&y=7tu0eu

I am so pleased with this room!! Just a few more things to get done. The curtains are going up tomorrow and the ceiling fan . . . hopefully this week. Then it's time to move the furniture in and just the littlest details!!

WOW! I can't believe how close it's getting!!

It Is FINISHED!!!

Well, at least the paint is finished!! The nursery is done!! Now all that's left is to hang the curtains and the ceiling fan, move in the bed, and move the dresser from the closet. I am so excited!! I'm not quite ready to share pictures just yet. I actually have the star to attach and then my masterpiece will be complete!!!

Speaking of that star, it has been my biggest headache over the last few weeks -- trying to figure out how to do the star and the end zones. I found some print out stencils online that were perfect, so that was taken care of, but it was that silly star!! There was a Cowboys magnet at the mall that I thought was $6 and I thought I could trace it and then paint it in. But, when I went to pick it up, it was actually $13!! Not paying that for a large magnet that I have nothing to do with except put on my fridge after I'm done!!

Then, my genius friend, Krissy, said, 'Hey! What about those stars that you see at places like the prom where they hang them from the ceiling?' I went straight to Card & Party Factory and there were the stars -- in about 8 different colors and about 6 different sizes!! So, I bought a large blue star, a smaller white star, and an even smaller blue star. I stacked them on top of each other and it looks just like the Cowboys star!! And, I didn't have to paint anything!!!

Anyway, I am so very excited that it is complete. I'll be sharing pictures within the week. I just want to get the curtains hung first.

Also, here's a little something that Aaron found that I absolutely love and I thought I would share it with all of you!!!

www.grocerylistmaker.com

You HAVE to check it out!! You can check off the things you need and it prints out a list of just those things and it's all categorized!! And, if you need something that isn't on the list, you just add it yourself. I checked off everything and printed it out to hang on the fridge. I have a highlighter near by and when we run out of something, we just highlight whatever it is that we need. Today I went to Wal-Mart with my list and was checking out in 30 minutes!! Now, it wasn't monthly grocery shopping or anything, but I loved having my list all highlighted!! I think it just makes my life easier!!

I am determined!!

I wanted to title this blog "I am OBSESSED", but I think a better word is DETERMINED. I'm DETERMINED to get this nursery finished!!! I feel like I've been working on it forever. Although, it's only been a few weeks off and on, I guess just because I've had the whole thing in my head since July and how many times I've drawn it all out on my graph paper, it feels like it's been forever.

I can say that I think I know more about the Dallas Cowboys than I ever thought I would. I know their colors, what the field looks like, I even know a few players and their numbers. I only have one wall left in the nursery to finish and it's the football field. So, I've been checking out the Dallas Cowboys website and looking at the new stadium through the hole in the roof down onto the field. All the while, learning about the tradition of the open roof and the Dallas Cowboys. I've been trying to match the font of the field. I can't find the right stencils, but last night I realized that I have my scrapbooking die-cut machine (my Cricut (pronounced Cricket)) that can cut letters out and I can make the stencils. . . I just don't have the right cartridge.

Right at this point, Aaron would think that I'm nuts. He thinks I'm getting too detailed on this room. I just keep telling him that it will be AWESOME when it's finished. I already have a few kindergarten boys that are wanting to move in there!!

I did find a lady online who has done the whole football field thing on the wall. She did her son's room in the University of Alabama. Her wall looks AMAZING!! I just hope this wall looks half as good as hers when I'm finished!!

BUT, the reason that I'm able to focus so much on this room is because I'm learning to delegate. I am so thankful for that!! By delegating things out, I'm able to focus on the nursery. I'm able to focus on my house. I'm able to not be all stressed out about how many things I have to get done in a day or this week. And, in learning how to delegate, I am so thankful that I get to go to children's church on Sunday morning and I don't have to do a single thing -- just be there.

I'm even getting "the night off" tonight. I'm thinking about heading to the scrapbook store for a few hours of crop therapy. Gosh! Before, the only time I really had to do that was the last Sunday of the month. I don't know what I'm going to do really.

My goal for today is to:
* Finish taping off the yard lines in Jaxon's room and get them painted
* Get Payton & Evan's room picked up and organized again (aka throw a bunch of stuff away)
* Get my laundry all done

Then, maybe tonight I'll head to the scrapbook store for a little R & R and use her Cricut and the cartridge there.

Gosh! Maybe I should have delegated someone to finish Jaxon's room!! No, I'm too much of a control freak for that! ;)

P.S. Here's something neat that happened to Aaron last night. Ever since we got married, Aaron has wanted to go to the OU vs UT football game (aka The Red River Shootout). But, tickets have been expensive and hard to get. About a week ago, Aaron's cousin called and said he MIGHT have Aaron a ticket, but he had to make sure it wasn't taken already. Aaron got excited, but that started to fade after days of not hearing from Ryan. But, last night at 10:30 pm, Aaron's phone rang. His cousin has him a ticket on the 50 yard line on the first row on OU's side!! Aaron is so pumped!! He kept telling me it was an answer to prayer. I just laughed. He thinks I'm not excited about him going, but I really am. Yes, I have to take my kids to 3 birthday parties on Saturday -- two of which are at the same time, different places -- but I'm really excited for him. And, I'm excited that at least the boys and I have something to do on Saturday!! So, if you watch the game, rejoice with Aaron that he's there!!!